Help my husband find a new job.

The company that my husband has been working for for 10 years is under financial duress and may be closing. I’ve been sending out resumes and such, but, also, we are moving forward with the Army thing. Finally got the lasik records to the Army and also have gotten a new eye exam – passed with flying colors (he’s smiling, I’m not as thrilled, but I’m keeping my chin up). Now going to schedule for MEPs.

I hated every minute of it. They SWEAR they sent it already, but the Army says they never got it. I believe the Army. The Sgt. would just LOVE to have my hubby sign on the dotted line, so I see no reason for him to say he didn’t get it if he did… ick!

Through totally selfish reasons… I’ve been lagging at pestering the lasik people for his records. It’s the last piece of paperwork the Army needs before they send my dear husband off for his physical fitness test. Once this is “in,” we are “committed” unless he fails the physical. I’m trying to work up the nerve to do this. Be strong. Be brave. But, well, shoot, I really just don’t want to do this. But I will. I can. I will.

Ok, I KNOW that the military runs on the Never Ending Paperwork Theory – if they keep on needing and producing paperwork, then they will always be in existance! ... so now we need to get his records for his lasik eye surgery from nearly 10 years ago – you’d think that if he were going to have a problem with it, it would have manifest itself by now, yes? But, OK, we will continue to humor the Army :-)

After all this, I sure hope they will pay enough so that my guy can make his “mid-life crisis fantasy job” a reality. I’m still resistant, but I guess now I am hoping he can qualify and that they will be able to pay enough… I mean, it’s hard to say “no” to your best friend and lover when he gets “that look in his eye.” I guess I’ve always known to some degree that he should have been “a lifer” when he was in the USMC…

Now they are scheduling the “over 40” physical… and MEPs… and we’ll see if physically, he can still “hang with the young guys.”

I forgot about all the paperwork when dealing with the government. Well, at least my husband is an organized person – all of his paperwork was still all together in a big binder, so that made my life easier… I’m still not happy, but I think I know what I want out of it if they take him … since we will be married 20 years this year, I want to renew our vows with him in uniform. I fit my wedding dress again. I want a photo of him in uniform renewing our vows. Now that I’m finally starting to accept the possibility, I wonder if I will be dissappointed if he doesn’t make it…

They made some disparaging remark about the USMC – not a good way to entice my husband to “Go Army,” that’s for sure… however, the recruiter seemed to think that my dear husband could be a viable candidate… cut in pay – ick!

he’s taking classes, honing his skills, talking to “people in the know” to see if the “plan” is viable and where it needs adjusting… he’s in his element, that’s for sure. he’s confident, excited, feeling like he’s doing something useful… me, I am trying really hard to be brave, to accept, to let go.

Bless our troops and the civilian contractors who support them… and for the friends and loved ones who wait.

slowly. I seem to not be as flexible as I once was. Nor as accepting. I’m trying.

We are making progress, have a plan, and all such things. I can’t say too much as it could become a security issue, but, I guess, with him being a former USMC, I shouldn’t have been too surprised. His “brothers” are over there, fighting the good fight, and while the USMC deems him too old, his desire to support them is pretty overwhelming. So, we will again commence preparations to Go To War. Been there. Done that. And while I am not very pleased, I can do it again… he, on the other hand, is just chomping at the bit, eyes all aglow, eager to put into action the unused skills from his youth. Some guys buy red sports cars or chase wild women for their mid-life crisis. Why does mine want to go to Iraq? (Ok, I know the answers, but sometimes it still makes me scratch my head and wonder.)