be more socially active

get to know my darling’s family better
keep in touch with girls from home, esp. S.
keep in touch with my Johnnies
do better with G. and A. and make them both real friends, for starters
keep in better touch with my family
more letters and phone calls, encourage visitors and social occasions at home
make buddies with my class

This is perpetually difficult. Getting better, and not terribly drastic (can always maintain casual friendships), but really, really tough to hang in there. I get very anxious with people, especially people I like, more as as we start to become close. Frustrating, too, and hard to explain to them.

I’m developing a fast friendship with another person I admired for a long time, and I’m afraid I’ve already started to send him mixed messages. I have to forcibly turn my attention back to myself (this is my friendship, it is for me too, I’m not desperate, there is no need to impress, only to be honest).