be a size 16

since i last wrote, ive lost maybe almost 40 pounds since my ex asked for a divorce. i fit into 18s but not all 18s. another 10 pounds and all my 18s will fit me then another 10-15 pounds id be in 16s. my goal size is a size 14. i wonder if i will get there ever?

i got up to a size 24 which was an eek moment for me. since my husband had asked for a divorce ive been loosing weight. i can squeeze into size 20s now. id still like to get to this goal of a size 16. not for weight purposes so much as i fealt better about myself at that size. and then id like to make the new goal of a size 14. but i know its hard for me to get smaller without going back to the bulemic behaviors so i wont even try.

It almost fit yesterday, almost. I think 10-15 lbs I will be able to get that jacket. Everything else is another story.

I think that I should buy a pair of size 16 that I can hang on my wall or door or something that can serve as motivation. Maybe if I see a pair of 16s daily, it will make me get my ass in gear to fit into those bitches.

Its just a matter of whose 16 I will buy. Every store has a different 16, especially since most places are changing due to to vanity sizing ( which is alright with me btw). Maybe H&M or probably Ashley Stewart. May I’ll just go to TJ max or somewhen cheap so that I dont feel guitly if it doesnt happen.

Side note: I cannot wait until I can shop @ Zara and Banana Republic.

I am beginning to think that I will have to be danm near under 200 pounds before I am back into a 16.

in my regular mall. There is one in every other mall. But there was not on in the mall that I usuaally shop in so I was not accosted with the temptation of what can almost be all the time. I love H&M. I love everything about it. Alot of my accesories come from H&M but since the largest size that they carry is a small running 16 buying thier clothes has not been an option. blah. I will fit a 16 by New Years and buy a dress for H&M.

I tired on sninny jeans in a 18 today. I think it was one of the worst things that I have evenr done. I knew that it was not going to turn out well, but I did it anyway. That was my silliness. Blech. It may take more than 25 punds to get here.

On another note: Maybe skinny jeans are not supposed to make anyone feel remotely good about themselve, exceplt like skinny people. They shouldnt even make them in plus sizes. Its torture.

I am in that weird stage of size where I have no idea what size I wear. I went to the store and tried on an 18 that was too big. But the 16 was too tight. It really makes me want to be naked all the time so that I don’t have to deal with it all. I have waffled around in 18/20 land for a long time. I want to be away from it as soon as possible. I remember being a 16 at one time. It was sometime in high school. I was around 235-245. I wish that I could say that 230 would bring me to a 16 but my body composition is way differnt than it was when I was in HS. I really dont know how much weight I would have to lose to fit into a 16 again. To be safe, I’m thinking another 25 pounds before I even attempt it. The problem is that I need clothes now. I guess that I will just have to continue to get my feelings hurt until I have a true size.

heya i just wanna be happy i have done things to make myself thin but in the end i realise it wasnt helping not eating means that when you eat of drink is not good for you ,you will get sleepy and very ill

from luvin size 16

since i just met my initial goal of being a size 18 im ready for the next baby step down the line. eventually i do want to be in 14s for this summer