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How I did it: I started to develop my eating disorder about a year and a half ago. It was great at first, you know, losing weight, feeling in control, it made my depression a little easier to handle. Yeah, then my parents found out, I went to therapy, hated life, and "got better". As soon as I stopped seeing my therapist I was restricting on and off until this past November, when my eating disorder got the worst it's ever been. I was eating 500-600 calories a day, sometimes less, at my lowest point. Over Christmas I got sick, but still had an appetite and mild nausea. I pretended I was very nauseous and had no appetite, and didn't eat for a few days, including Christmas and Christmas Eve. It ruined my holiday.
I decided I needed help and now I'm in recovery, and have been for almost a month. It's hell and I hate it, I've had a few good days but most days I just want to give up. I've gained five pounds already and I kind of want to die.
Anyone who wants an eating disorder has serious problems. When I was much younger, I wanted an eating disorder, because I thought it was glamorous and would give me attention.
Well, I got my wish.
Let me tell you, it's not anything like I would thought it would be. Eating disorders are illnesses, kill people every year, and mine has completely taken over my life. They're anything but glamorous. Read how I did it… 4 years ago
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How I did it: . My life never sucked so bad as when i had an active disorder. i've been okay for almost 2 years now and i'm STILL anemic. i decided
to overcome this to have my daughter, and she was healthy the entire
pregnancy, but i was sick every day. i had to go to the er about 4
times for i.v. fluids and the anti-nausea stuff they give cancer
patients. Read how I did it… 4 years ago
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i have had a eating disorder for 3 years now.. off and on.
Its hard to brake.. food seems to comfort me becasue unfortionetly i have depretion too.. so when im sad.. i go to purging. Lately..which is alot..
I cant seem to get over it becasue im struggling to keep a handle on my life right now and it seems it’s just too hard to get over at the moment.
I hate doing it and want to stop..but i cant. I have been to see a theripist anda dietision but they dont seem to understand or are able to help.
Im so so sick of it now.. i feel tired all the time..and sense the love off my life broke my heart, i haven’t been too happy…everytime i try to move on…i get hurt again…
I dont know what to do…im so despret for anythign to help me.. I thought i could do it on my own..but i feel i’ll never get over it..and it’s slowly killing me..
I never believed it was a disease tell recently… i wish i could turn back time to when i thought it was just something to loose weight easy.. what a fool i was..
If anybody ever wanted to talk about it im more then open.. talking honestly has helped me more then ever..
Im no longer ashamed of it..i have excepted my problem and am now just looking at getting better.. 4 years ago
this is not something you should aspire to.
it is plain and simply a disease. and its an insult to anyone who is currently or HAS gone through it to say you want to have one. because the people who have or have had one want nothing more than to rid themselves of it… 4 years ago
Having an eating disorder is not healthy and it messes up your metabolism for life. There are many more things that you can do in your life that are more positive. Focus on the good not the negative. 5 years ago
i was never happy. but now.. i can’t even say how horrible this disease is.
i don’t know what i am going to do about it. 5 years ago
do the butter fast. eating disorders suck. 6 years ago
Have theses problems is so hard… i just need help… 6 years ago
