Understand people better.

Everyone says I don’t understand, but I do. Maybe I’m just no conveying it, I don’t know.

I am sometimes a very quiet person. I don’t say many things, or express my feelings, or change the tone of my voice. At these times, I am simple to understand. And I am also not very interesting. I fade out because I don’t give enough information to a person who is different than me.

In other times, I talk my thoughts. I encourage, advice, or correct people. This has lead to long term friendships with 3 girls that I eventually grew feelings for. I did not express these feelings until it was too late. I am finally starting to understand how this mistake affected my life in a negative way.

At some rare cases I talk feelings, not thoughts. I don’t feel comfortable opening myself that easily. I feel very vulnerable when I do so. I did not realized this until today. It might help if I try to start talking about feelings more often. I want things to change from now on..

I watch and read and sometimes interact with people who will read the same poem but get a completely different view of what the words mean. Some are easy to and are right to the point, and the mind doesn’t see it. I believe that you have to work with a poem to get what the poet is trying to say.Not what you believe it means.

It seems that there is more than meets the eye when you are percieving the world around you. In fact, I am beginning to realize things that although they were always there I never took the time to notice them. It is hard to pick up these realizations when you unwillingly filter out what you percieve to be useless information. I just wish, I was more sensitive to the emotions of people around me, their actions, and just everything in life. Really, life is so much more than a sequence of events! It is strange how people who have the ability to realize the emotions of people around them can pick up on tihngs so easily. I want to be able to know that I should make a list of goals so i can check them off, or why it is I feel the way I do, when other people can see it as plain as day.