So many thoughts running through my mind, so many questions left unanswered, my heart feeling so heavy..
I’m sorry my baby.. I wish I had a chance to tell you how sorry I am that I couldn’t bring you to this world, how I was actually looking forward to your birth, to be your Mommy, to give you the most wonderful name in the world, to groom you in so many ways, but I’m sorry.. I just can’t. I’m sorry that you had to be fertilized in my tummy, that I’m with such a guy who doesn’t have the courage to bring you into this world together with me. I’m sorry bb…
It killed me to have to make the decision, it killed me to know that I was gonna throw you away as I saw you growing slowly but gradually in my bulging little tummy, it killed me as I was lying on the operating table, it killed me as I had to count to 20 and fell asleep from the anesthesia, and it killed me the most when I woke up and knew you were no longer in my tummy. I even asked the nurse “How big was the baby?” and she simply replied me “It’ll just come out as menses, we can’t see.”
I hope you’ll lead a better life in another world bb, together with your Grandfather. I’m certain he would dote on you despite the fact that he’d be so disappointed with me, but I’m sure he knows you’re innocent. Take care my lil’ angel, I hope you’d be reincarnated into a complete family who would shower you with the unconditional love you deserve.
18th September 2009 – I’ll never forget this day. You were already 2 months plus old… May God bless you my lil’ angel. I love you. 3 years ago
ladies don’t do it unless it’s truly what you want to do. I should be 5 months pregnant right now… It tears me apart. I was forced into it by my parents. My dad yelled and screamed at me and told me I would be ruining my life if I didn’t get one. My mom told me my boyfriend would run when I got too big. I broke down at dinner tonight with my boyfriend… Neither of us wanted it. I’m only 17 but we both have full-time jobs, we could’ve made it work. I don’t know, if there is one thing I could change in my life it would be to have my child back with me again. 4 years ago
I was 16 when I got pregnet wich was 10 years ago. I knew I was pregnet but was in complete denial and never even tol anyone. My boyfiend at the time was a piece of crap who was controlling and abusive. One day his mother comes by and says I look pregnet and makes me take a test. I knew it would be positve but I tried to shake the test so it wouldn t show the truth. When my mom found out she yelled and called me names and took me to the abortion clinic the next day. Telling me I shouldnt have a choice and to sign everything. It all happened so fast. Then I found out I was 5 months pregnet . I had to go through a partial birth abortion wich included two cities and two differnt days. The first days being induced labor. After all this I did not feel bad right away. But it took me many many years to accept that this had happened to me. FOr years I hated seeing pregnet women and even babies. Buit now I have accepted that I am still a good person and i have to go on with my ife. 5 years ago
I’m eighteen years old, but I was seventeen when i got my abortion. Fun? Maybe, if I was that type of person, but guess what, it affected me more than I thought when they screwed it up. I had a telescope in me. That may be very humourous now, but it wasn’t. I lost blood. They fucked up my abortion. I killed my baby.
Had I let it live, it would be born around this time. I didn’t liek the father at all though and was afraid I would despise that baby. Or maybe not.
I want to get over this. I really do. It affected me way mroe than I thought it would, but way less than other people thought. I hate it when people make such a big deal.
And how about the antiabortionist. You may be very strong-feelinged about such a topic, but it isn’t you making the choice. I don’t like to eat, but I do. You don’t liek abortions, but accept it.
please? You’re doing the world more harm than good.
As for me, so was I. I screwed up a baby.
You’re screwing with me.
Is it worth it: you to do this to me, but at the same time me to do it to my baby?
Same thing. 6 years ago