Grow as a person.

I want to follow up on this goal by doing something everyday that contributes to growing as a person.

I’m 24 and have only truly become fully aware of the idea of growing as a person within this past year or two. I feel like my relationship with my first love has made me see this. It’s amazing how life reveals things to us each day as we come to understand a little more bit by bit.

Making friendships on my own and maintaining them has always been a challenge for me, and I think I could grow a lot from learning how to do this, and in general, becoming much less self conscious and much more confident in myself. I also need to learn to be self reliant and learn how to make rent/insurance/utility payments and other related life responsibilities on my own.

I want to see myself as a confident, smart, interesting, and mature person, and to be able to hold my own in any situation, no matter what life deals my way, whether I am surrounded by people who support me and cheer me on, or people who judge me too critically and pull me down.

Life sometimes deals me good positive people who nurture me and build me up. It also deals me harmful people who wish to pull me down, to deliberately inflict harm to prevent me from achieving my best.

It doesn’t matter what kind of people I encounter, the ultimate power is in my own hands. I have control over my own decisions, emotions, actions, attitudes, which gives me the ultimate control of my own destiny.

I am in my late thirties. Life seems to be the same day after day. I remember growing in leaps and bounds in my younger years. I don’t want to stop growing as a person just because I am getting older.

In my last six months of high school, the stress of about 10,000 things (from an emotionally abusive person to three AP classes to 30 hour work weeks) fried my brain. I became depressed, needy, and stopped caring about everything I’d once enjoyed. I also had symptoms of psychosis, alcoholism, and god knows what else.

I’m still reeling from it all. I want to put it all behind me - summer helped me unwind and recover from much of it - but I’m still having difficulties. I want to do things for myself, but I’m still not sure how. I need to stop lying to myself and those looking out for me (a certain guy has been through nearly all of it with me, and I’m just now realizing how much he cares).

I know I can do it, though. Two years ago I was a smart, confident, objective girl with everything I could’ve ever wanted. I can be that again.

You know, I find it hard to believe that I was ever so cynical that I thought time stood still and people stopped growing. However, it has become obvious to be that I’m growing as a person… when I hold my tongue before I say things I’d later regret and as I accept my mistakes and learn from them. and stop trying to live in the past.

Without having someone else there in my life there were no more excuses , before i knew it i had moved to a new city temporarily to train for a job that i had previously decided not to take because of the impact it would have on my relationship . I started doing stuff for me , meeting new people , discovering who i was a person . Now i have a life brimming with oppoutunity , scary and yet exciting possibilities and a better relationship ( with the person who broke my heart before but hey some things deserve second chances )

I want to grow as a person.I noticed that i have gone on in life acheiving goals i have set out for myself. I also noticed I dont stop and enjoy my acheivements. After one thing i set another goal. I want to grow as a person and enjoy the moment i am in. I plan and try to acheive. I expect others to be happy forr me when they see what i have accomplished, nt enjoying it myself. I want to grow as a person and be able to understand what i want in this world, not what i think i should want.

I guess I am always doing this, but I doubt it will ever get off my list, because I don’t ever want to stop… possibly a contradiction with wanting to learn to just be… but I believe the two can be in unison…

Maybe I’m wrong…

Its funny what a breakup will make you realise , and the major thing that breaking up with the boy has made me realise is that .. i need to grow as a person .

There is so much more i need to experience and learn about myself before i can be the person i want to be .. I just wish it hadnt taken a relationship break up to teach myself and my ex partner that .