find a career I love

After much consideration, I think I would like to pursue graphic design. It’s such a brilliant medium in that it encompasses everything I love; writing, photography, illustration etc. Now if I could just get a job I might be able to afford a course at the Edinburgh College of Art.

Because I’m not even sure if there is a career that exists which can do it.

I read this article today that a friend in a similar career situation as mine posted on her Facebook. It was basically about how you can do whatever job you like whilst working a day job. Seems simple enough, right? Except it occurred to me that I don’t really know what I want to do. My mind changes constantly. I know I love writing, photography, graphic deisgn, and cooking, but I have that little problem with discipline that means I’d rather sit around thinking about how to do these things rather than actually getting out there and doing them.

I think it’s time to get out the masking tape and tie me down to a chair.

I’m considering taking part-time work for now while I look for a job. I though it may be temp jobs would work well for me because I get so bored doing the same thing day in and day out. I haven’t quite figured out how financially feasible it is, but I don’t want to walk into another brick wall.

In the meanwhile, I’m hoping to get some volunteer work at one of the animal charities in Edinburgh. It’s time I gave something back.

Well, I’m halfway to my goal! I just got laid off. :(

It’s pretty straightforward – You spend most of your life at work (at least I do), and if you’re not happy with your career the boredom, anger and stress will spread into every area of your life. I don’t hate my job, but I don’t particularly find it fulfilling. I fell into marketing quite by accident, but what I’d really like to do is graphic design. This will have to be one of those self-teaching deals because I can’t afford to take a course right now. Therein lies the problem – my lack of discipline.

Again this is something I simply have to do as I don’t think I can spend so much of my life doing something day in day out that I hate. Any tips other people would like to share feel free!

I have always wanted to take part in a movie, video or magazine, but the real reason to do this is to help me with my public speaking skills

All through high school and most of college, I knew exactly what I wanted to do: I wanted to be an actress. I had leads in all the plays, was majoring in musical theatre at a well-known school, got a lot of compliments from people, and loved every second of the hours I spent at rehearsals.

Then, one day, I realized that I was counting the minutes until I could go home.

It was like all of a sudden acting stopped being fun. I dreaded going to rehearsals, I couldn’t wait for shows to be over, I didn’t even get excited when my scenes were coming up anymore. And, well, let’s be honest here… performance isn’t exactly a career one goes into for the money. If I didn’t love it anymore, it would be ridiculous to keep pursuing it.

And ever since then I’ve been kind of flailing around aimlessly trying to figure out what to do with myself. I’ve always spent a lot of time writing, and love hearing and telling stories, and I even went on to get a Master’s in playwriting later on. But that’s another one that becomes significantly less enjoyable when I actually have to do it.

So now I’m trying to figure out the best fit. I’ve considered everything from teaching, to bartending, to owning a book store, to dog grooming. Maybe it’s writing after all and I’m just not applying myself like I should. Or maybe I’m barking up the wrong tree completely.

Honestly, I think I spend way too much time dwelling on it. Really what I need to do is just try all these various possibilities and see if I like them, right? I mean, worst case scenario is I don’t… and I move on.

Wow, this is a novel. Sorry guys. Can you tell I’ve been turning this over in my head a lot lately? Hahaha.

I have been meditating on this and feel that I am getting closer. I started to ask myself I want to know what I want and things are starting to fall into place