I am a naturally kinetic person. It started with my first ballet class at five, and I’ve been moving ever since. In high school, I was a hardcore dancer. I never realized how talented I was until now. I don’t know why, but I had no confidence about my abilities and I stupidly let a stranger talk me out of pursuing a career in dance.
I regret that. Every day, I regret that. So many of my dancer friends followed their dreams, and many of them dance in professional companies. I don’t know if that’s the lifestyle I would have necessarily wanted, but it should have been my decision to make, not someone else’s.
It’s hard to find advanced dance classes for adults where I am, and sadly, I’m not as good as I once was. But I’ve always remained active. Since then, I’ve taken yoga, pilates, tai chi, kick boxing, aerobics, zumba, step, in addition to ballet and modern when I could make it out to the city. I’ve taught preschool gym and worked as a personal trainer at a gym and at people’s houses. I’ve recently taken up hoop dance and I love it.
I didn’t like working as a personal trainer. The atmosphere was a little too competitive and there was too much selling and down time. But I was younger and maybe not mentally ready to be a trainer. I loved, absolutely loved teaching preschool gym, but I didn’t make enough money to make a career out of it. If I knew how, I would. I’ve been thinking about getting my group fitness certification to teach pilates or hoop dance, or my own personal workouts.
I’m temping as a file clerk right now, and I can’t picture myself sitting all day for the rest of my life. This is the first time I’ve ever had a chair at my job and I loathe it. As much as I always say I want a normal 9-5 like everyone else, I probably can’t do it. I feel that if I’m lucky enough to have this reservoir of kinetic energy inside of me, it would be a waste not to take advantage of it.
So what do I do with all of it? 6 days ago