Give God All of Me

Dear Jesus,

What an amazing life you have given me. i thank you father God for the heat of the sun that hurts my skin. it only means im fully awake. i thank you lord for the people who keeps on annoying me in my work, cause it only means that i am able to do to my job. you know what ive been going through and i thank you for the strength and realizations that helps me to see beyond what my eyes can see. i thank you Jesus for indeed i am nothing but you have lifted me up whenever i fall down. you put my heart into the lowest portion so i may lift your name . God everybody has its own problem and it’s so amazing to know how you deal with each and everyone differently, according to our needs. i just want to say thank you once again for calming me even though i really wanted to do something which i think is okay, but God your so amazing for letting me know that you are concerned with all i am and what is going to happen in me, i just want to trust you Lord, and give you my heart. i pray for the joy and peace to be set in my heart as i continue to live my life today.
Thank you Jesus.
Amen

and read a bunch of the prayers that I had written to God during transition-times, and discovered that I like the way this young girl sounds. I LIKE me; She sounds nice, and cheerful, and hopeful and reliant on God, and trusting in His ability and authority over her life. Wow. What a discovery… Despite my greatest fears, maybe I’m not such a basket-case afterall. It’s good to know that, at least, in my most trying moments, my reaching out and pleas with God are actually filled with praise and worship and not faced upon my own problems at all. In fact, they are only naming the problems in order to give them over to Him.
Lord, I lay my cares and worries at your feet this morning. Please take care of my heart today. Please let me not be humiliated, but let today ring /sing in my heart for many days to come because of your blessings and faithfulness. I know that you are near Lord, thank you, Amen.

Thank you for the alpha group that I facilitated today, thank you that people were real and honest, thank you that people restrain from giving pat answers that they think they should say, thank you that people voice their frustrations and their joys regarding their experiences with you, thank you that we are all different, thank you that I didn’t become flummoxed by confrontation, scared to speak, frightened of silence, thank you that people are excited to come on the weekend, thank you that there is real introspection going on, please be active in peoples hearts, please let the discussion bring about real change in people’s hearts and attitudes about who you are, who the church is, and who they are in your eyes, thank you for all the blessings that you have brought into my life this week: notes from friends, encouraging telephone calls, email replies, opportunities to share the bounty that I have, opportunities to bring relief and joy to others, opportunities to speak one on one with people about the difficult and heart-close struggles in their lives, the ability to speak when you nudge me to speak – without fear, just thank you for confidence today.

In his book The Weight of Glory and Other Addresses

We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in the slum because he can not imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased

it’s so easy to get lost in the desires of this world and forget that this is just a shadow … a reflection of things to come. What God has for us is so much more real and more rich that it makes this “fun” look … sick.
The Apostle Paul called it rubbish (or literally dung, or crap in Greek)
Phil. 3:8-9
I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness
of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all
things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and
be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes
from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ the
righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.

nothing else matters

Dear God,
Thankyou for a sunny morning, and the chance to sleep in, and the kind tutors at school, and the incredibly good chance to learn about You while I work, please provide me with dedication and diligence today, I do not have the will power to sit and study… I have tried on my own… and it just does not happen… I am weak and flighty, prone to procrastination and self indulgence. My inability to complete even ONE task in the past month has filled me with self loathing and I am so tired of it. Please put Your fire and passion into my bones today, guide my eyes over the lines on the computer screen and the pages of the text book, let me not give up today. Thanks, Amen

Roman 1:25
For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped
and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is
blessed forever.

Isaiah 45:9
“Woe to the one who quarrels with his Maker An earthenware vessel among the vessels of earth! Will the clay say to the potter,
‘What are you doing?’ Or the thing you are making say,
‘He has no hands’?

1. God love ME not my body the me inside .. And if I was fat, he would still love ME .. He die for me and wants me to give my life … my whole life, to Him
2. My body is temporary it is getting older it might get fat. It will die what I do and how I live for Christ will last
3 anything that I put before God INCLUDING FOOD becomes an idol and my god. YOU SHALL HAVE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME
4 instead of trying to focus on what not to do I need to turn my focus on God
5 there is a good chance that things could get harder before they get easier. It’s hard to tell how strong something is unless it is tested. His strength is made perfect in my weakness.

I can’t do this on my own, but I CAN do it through Christ
a friend sent me this song my Reliant K that just about sums it up
it’s called Be My Escape

the beauty of grace is it makes life not fair

Why do I find this so difficult sometimes? When I think about it it seems easy, and when im around christians it becomes second nature. But when for instance im at home or at school around people who are either agnostics or atheists it becomes a nightmare….pray.

this last month has been a real time of ups and downs…
I have had a real struggle with my eating again, and the real battle came with my desire to want to run for my problem and from God

I’m finding though that I am learning as much or more from the times when I fall as when I am strong.. and I am finding that I can’t and don’t need to do this on my own

“His strength is made perfect in my weakness”

How do you know even, when you’re being honest with yourself or when you’re deceiving yourself just cuz it’s easier…? How do you know when you’re really letting something go, or when you’re secretly holding the desire for it close to your chest?

What are words anyways.
Language.
Language, words can be faulty. Can sound nice, but can be totally false.

Where is my substance?

He really does love me so much… he blesses me so unexpectedly and so overwhelmingly…

It is so much to try to take in…