feel loved

I learn that I already have unconditional love from my family, especially my parents. After all their support and guidance they have gave me, I definately feel loved :)

sensational .

i am really struggleing with my inner thoughts. looking for that reason to not hurt myself. i need to focus on my cats and 2 girls i babysat most of their lives. i can’t hurt these people i really think care about me. and the cats—depend on me. i promised them it was “til death do us part,” an di’, not going to be the one to opt out of that one if i can help it. their health and happiness dependes on me.
i wish i had someone that would watch my back, but i can’t see having someone purely for that reason. it’s just not fair to the other person.
so i keep going.

you would feel if you were loved :)

so far from this.
in fact, i feel more like the Little Red Hen. you know the story—she grows the wheat, and makes the flour, and eventually bakes the bread, asking her friends if they want to help. they say no, but when it’s time to eat the bread (maybe it’s cake?) they all want some, and Little Red Hen says “i think not!”
yup, that’s exactly how i feel.
people like me only for what i can do for them.
and whenever i ask for help, they disappear.

nope.

i think everyone wants 2 feel love its human nature

i feel like i try too hard in my relationships. i am too loyal, and patient and put in so much effort that i dont feel is returned. My goal for the next year is to change this. im only going to love myself and maybe someone will come around that wants to try hard for me.

hi

DON’T right now.
the only thing that keeps me from suicide is my cats.