Maxime is back, for now!
Some people really succeed in making me feel loved nowadays. A lovely girlfriend, a few extraordinary friends, and all the people who care about me, including you all. There are a lot of you, on this website, that I consider as friends, and who make me feel appreciated in a certain way, and it’s a little part of the big result that I got, the transformation I’ve seen since I took up this goal.
This is probably the goal that affected me the most since I joined this website, over 2 years ago. I’ve seen a major change, the difference seems to be quite obvious. I also feel like I’ve helped myself, by evolving in a certain way. Now, I think you don’t need to try to please others in order to be loved or appreciated. Being yourself is an even better way. Not everyone will like you, but those who do like you will like you for what you really are, and not for a fake “you” that you put up in order to feel loved.
I think I’ve reached a level of social attitude I’ve never reached before. I think I’m a better person now, compared to what I was just a year ago, for example. I stopped caring about what others think and started living for myself, and the rest just came by itself. There’s a huge difference between being loved, and being conditionally loved. Sometimes you will act a certain way, even if it’s against your opinions and principles, just to please somebody. Then you get kind of stuck in this fake attitude in order to not disappoint that somebody. That’s what I learned to avoid, I guess. I stopped compromising, I am myself, and now I feel loved like never before. Sure I disappointed some people when I took the mask down, but are those people worth my friendship? No! But I didn’t lose anyone valuable! Heck, I even think I got rid of some people who were more harmful to me than anything else! Liars, hypocrites, fakers, obsessed and depressive people used to stick around me and use my friendship as a way to make them feel better, as in better than me! Because they know I easily let people walk over my feet, I’m lacking some character and it has always been a problem for me, and I don’t think it’s something that is going to change anytime soon. But at least, you got to learn how to deal with your flaws, and keep people from using them to their advantage!
I know I’m a very generous guy, friendly and faithful, caring and supportive, kind and honest! And these people around me remind it to me everyday. I’m proud of what I am. I’m a good guy. :)


