confess my love

Dear oh dear! What is love anyway? Mutual respect and appreciation? In that case I’ve loved a few. This feels different however but I’m more cautious about throwing the phrase around than I have been in the past. I won’t say it first. Sometimes I am overcome nearly to the point of tears with adoration for my boyfriend, but I bite my tongue. I shall wait for him to say it incase I am jumping the gun. Time will tell. I suppose there is no rush in saying it. Maybe the words add nothing to the actions/feelings. Still… it’s ready to burst out of me.

Uh, no, not worth it. He was a total flop! And it’s so much better to be single anyways. >.<

He’s perfect… but, really? I’m not so sure. I mean, he has his own life, and I have mine, and as much as I’m pretty sure that I’m in love with him, I’ve never done this type of thing before… And…

Well, I don’t want to lose my only friend, either. And I just have this doubt that’s been growing bigger and bigger, that he really does hate me, just like all the others…

Ugh. If HE wants to be friends, so be it. I still wanna tell him, though…

~Woesofthenorm

The person I like for almost a month was preparing to move to other state in few weeks.
I told myself, if I don’t let this person know my true feeling is, I will feel sorry for myself.

It was really hard to speak out, but I did it.Later on he decided to stayed for one more year. After a year, I got my degree and we move to the city he always wants to be.

I think my title speaks for itself.

I’ve been going out with —-— for over a month now. We have a couple dates a week. Of course are far as she knows, were just friends and our ‘dates’ are just outings. I helped this illusion along by telling her how I wasn’t trying to date her, that I just enjoyed having a female friend to do stuff with. What a complete load of horse shit. I’m pathetic. Although, you’d think that by now my feelings would be overtly obvious to her. I think about her all the time, almost to the point of obsession. I need to sum up some balls and just tell her how I feeel, but the fear of rejection and the possibility of losing her completely scares the living shit out of me.