stop self-injuring

225 days…nearly an entire year SI free. i am happy that i have made it this far but i am worried for the school year. with so much stress already in just the first month and barely anything to keep me distracted i am on the verge of breaking this 225 day streak. i know that if i do cut/burn it will not go unnoticed this time. my gym teacher does not allow ANY jewellery, watches or anything of the sort, just your shorts and tee. the old scars already create suspision and i dont want this to wreck my relationships with friends and family.

i had a major relapse that ended w/me in the hospital.
overdose and such. i’m trying to get back on track. so far so good.

it’s been 9 weeks.
i feel like i’m on hiatus rather than quitting.

so far i have gone one month and one day.
there are things contingent on my recovering.

I’m taking this off the list because I’ve decided to be more or less through with it. Not going to label it as much else, but I think I understand myself more; also, I realise that having slipped into this for a while it lingers in my mind as a sort of stress-release anger-venting route (which is Not Good) – but, most of the time now I’m able to tell myself to resist.

So finally i have made it a year w/o husting myself!! I am very proud.

Okay now about this time last year imade an account on this site and was reading all these stories about people who have done it for so long…and i wanted to be like them but nvr thought that i could be. But now i am. It is no longer a way of life for me and i have to power back. If there is anyone here who would like tot alk send me a msg on here. I’ll try to help as mucha s i can. I know there is only so much i can do but i’ll try. Hang in there everyone…..i know how hard it is … but you can do it…..... u really can… :)

Now that school is out i am a little worried. Now that i have more time on my hands… and nothing to look faward to when i am feeling bad.

But i think i will do okay… lately i have been very strong, and i am actually suprising myslef. I guess this is a sigtn of healing, and mving on.

When things get bad i still feel like i could … but i always find an excuse not ot. I am so proud of myself.

Everyone her ei wish you the best of luck… you can do it. I never though i could, and now i almost have. it is a great feeling, and i hope all fo you can feel it to.!!!

I am over 200 now. I am not sure what day it is really. I gues that is good. i j8ust know that every morning when i wake up i have not cut the night before. I still want to a lot, and it is a little depressing when i know i am over 200days but it doesn’t feel that far away yet. It should feel like alifetime away, but it doesn’t. Thre is nothing i can do about it right now… so i live my life day to day.

and on days when it gets bad.. and i am crying.. and feel like no one cares.. or whatever, i write in my book. I just filled one up totally. I am proud of it, becaue most of the pages are days that i worte instead of cut. Little thing like that carry me day, to day.. and i live.. STRONg

Everyone can do it… if they want to, i believe in ya’ll. I may not know you.. but i know that any person can do anything they want.. i am a liveing example.

Goodk luck everyone. P.S- i usually give good advice so if you want to talk leave a comment, and i’ll try to help any way i can.

i’ve stopped, mostly :D
and yeah i suppose, i guess that’s good. i didn’t tell many people, it was mostly internal. uhm. the last time i did was one-plus months ago? but you know, not chronically addictively doing it is an improvement i hope.
i should try to stay like this, i should think.
sigh-

I have been cut free for 200 this sunday. it is exciting, but…. there is always a but!!!

But i still do sometimes, want to cut. But then i look back on the 200 days, and i think i can’t do that to myslef. And if that doesn’t work, and i can’t do it for myself i think of being strong, for the one person who believes in me. My Gardian angel!!! I couldent let her down. she has done so much for me, and then i know that i can stay strong.

Still sometimes i wish i didn’t have that obligation, so i could cut. But i don’t want to be like that any more, and i have not been for 200 days. I just live day by day and thank god everynight for a good day. LIVESTRONG everyone!!!!!!