get smarter

I am going to try to meditate at least twice a day for about 15minutes each. After I good pretty good at it I’ll increase the intervals to 25minutes.

This seems to be too vague for the moment. Get smarter as in what? Get better grades or have more common sense or wit? I should stop having such vague goals which have no conclusive yardstick to measure progress.

Life is sometimes just not fair. On one hand, you take for granted the things that you already have, and regret those which you dont. On the other hand, you dont even realise that there are certain things you lack, till its late. The latter seems to be the case here. While I have spent most of my life worrying about what others think of me, petty politics, silly affairs, I so totally neglected grooming the one part that would be helping me manifold – my brain power. Today, I feel so intimidated seeing all those who seem to be prodigies in my class coming up with solutions for incomprehensible math questions. And I ask myself – ” what do I have to be proud about?” I have not worked on my creativity, nor my intelligence, or passions or hobbies. All I have left now is a will power and drive to be someone… a drive which is wavering like a flame on a breezy day. I believe I can hold on to it and make my way up… or can i?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!i didnt mean for this to go through can somebody tell me how to erase entries please

i read my old abnormal psychology text book while doing laundry cuz it was just sitting there.

today, i learned that crazy people are more creative. i guess thats a ‘duh’ but it was kinda interesting readind.