This is my Secret Project

1971 – 2008

Goodbye Michelle.

~lg!

I sat at a table tonight with 11 other people. I showed up a bit late and was asked to sit at the very end of the table. At the other end was another child. I love that.

After a glass of wine, the woman beside me said: “I can feel your energy.” I said: “I am soooo ready in this world..” – she said: “I can feel it.”

I knew it… I felt the tremendous energy when I sat down.. I often do. I have always wondered if people around me can feel it like I feel it. The answer is that you can/will. The energy will hit you. It has to.

It was an incredible night celebrating a birthday. I am so glad that I made it.

~lg!

Today a chapter closed.

~lg!

I thank God for my tremendous energy and unconquerable spirit.
I just got a call from my roommates. They are in London at in their suite on the 11th floor overlooking the Big Ben. I gotta go back. I need to plan a trip..

~lg!

Remind him that he murdered my friend.

~lg!

On Saturday May 19th, 2007,

I was NOshowed by my business partner to a multi-million dollar deal. NOshowed at the airport 5:30am… I called and called… no answer. I was so mad. Pissed. I was stewing. The plane was delayed so I didn’t get off the ground anyway. I called Diddy at 7am and he just got done “working”... we met for breakfast. I was so pissed… I just wanted to talk about what had happened.

This is a million dollar profit deal.. this is a shot for me… this is it. I have someone taking me in that is on the board there. They like me and trust me to do a good job. I have the complete setup.. 100%.. I can’t do it myself.. I need help… I ask.. and I get no-showed. I was PISSED! I am happy that the plane didn’t leave and I had to put if off anyway. That was a stroke of luck for me.

We talked about it.. We actually just laughed about this and said: “We need to write that one down.. that is a good one…”

That really happened.
~lg!

Over the weekend I was around some people with a blood pressure machine.. I took my blood pressure several times and it was 159/101. I waited a day and took it again and I was 169/103. They told me to go to the doctor ASAP as that is stroke level.

Today when I woke up.. my hands felt very tight.. towards the end of the day I felt dizzy and my chest started to hurt. I told a co worker.. and then really my next moment was walking though the front door at a doctors office… they met me at the door and seconds later they had me stripped down on a table shaving parts of my chest for the EKG leads.

It was happening so fast…like seconds.. they are pressing down on me as I lay on that white sheet of paper.. the first two EKG reads were not good.. third was good. They drew my blood.. put me through the x-ray. I was given blood pressure medicine and I have to go back to them and to a cardiologist.

Truthfully.. I thought I was light headed for eating an entire box of Girl Scout Cookies by myself today.. those peanut butter cookies are to die for.. (no kidding.. – that was an accidental pun.. but just on time)

~lg!

I will avenge him. I think I gotta.

It will be in a positive way… and there is a difference between the two.

~lg!

I believe today was the day that my life changed forever.

God please give me the strength, guidance, and wisdom that I need.

~lg!

Focus on & Imagine a flat in Czech Republic…

~lg!