be a person of action

Its almost a year now and being a person of action isnt as easy as it is to just write it down and think about it.
Ive managed to atleast get things going
1) i started excercising
2) started to lose weight
3) work on small business
– started to build up contacts
– website is almost done
– Looking for my own shop lot
– found a shipping agent(its expensive)
4)I have been applying to tons of eng jobs, finished working as a teacher but it seems ill have to start again to survive in 09
5)Its official i survived a year in Shanghai, barely survived though

Things im beating myself for doing/not doing
1)Finding other people with similar interests,
2) Not Participating in social events(excluding clubing and b-day parties)
3) Becoming antisocial being a tv bum,the idea of not doing anything is fabulous lol
4) travelling within china but hey welcome to the real world limited holiday days not much room for travelling.
5)Not starting on the small business setup earlier
6) Not clearing the Debt ive accumulated…. its tough
7) Not Saving money

so i put this up and ive realised a couple of things about myself.
1- i get to comfortable i just bum around
2- im becoming more antisocial
3- My dreams are on stand still(everything is on tenterhooks)

I feel like time’s moving tooo fast and im moving too slowly and everything im trying is moving too slowly. Im hanging in there almost have my head is above the water

im not being a person of action more of bumming. lol

As part of this goal, I’ve been finally doing some things I’ve long been putting off … like piercing my ears a second time, getting my second tattoo I’ve been planning for seven years, sending a note to certain folks, etc. It’s wonderful.

I’m marking this goal done, but something I’d like to continue doing.

Got some not so good news on the health front the other day. I’m responding with action! Packing up my stuff and getting it ready for storage is job one, as well as going on a crash diet and exercise plan to lose the weight my doctor would like to see me lose. I’ve jumped right into both, and sold a bunch of my stuff at a yard sale over the weekend. If I keep taking steps, even if they’re small steps, I know I’m headed in the right direction.

I was tired of not doing anything and tired of hating being so weak and lazy. So I joined Curves with my mom. I’m already feeling good about it. I also reopened my goal of doing yoga at least once a week.

And then there’s all the action I’ve been taking to make myself a happier person. Breaking up with my boyfriend is the biggest thing here, I suppose, and the resultant plans to move out from the house we share. But I’ve also been doing little stuff, like going to writer’s night, spending more time on leisure activities I enjoy, and setting up plans with friends. And I’m doing some things that’ve been on my I’ve always wanted to do …. list – like a drive-in movie.

So I made it. Well. Mostly, so far. Day’s not over!

I accomplished from my list:
- Shower and get dressed.
- Go to a wi-fi spot and do some work. Email said work to the bosses. Seriously be productive. (I was INSANELY productive. Everything is done except for one thing!)
- Buy the RAM for Gram’s computer.
- Write at least five letters to my pals. (I wrote at least fifteen. Whoo!)
- Avoid mental stresses other than ones work-related.

As well as also accomplishing:
- Cut a whole buncha branches off the trees. Serious tree trimming, folks.
- Kill all the ants and anthills on the back patio.
- Buy the shoes so you can just stop freaking OUT about them!
- Get hungry between lunch and dinner.

Okay, so for the rest of the night, I need to construct a dear_you, and manicure myself. I can handle that.

EDIT 6/27/08: I did do two dear_yous, but didn’t manage the manicure. I’m still planning it.

Okay -

Today’s goals:

- Shower and get dressed (gotta start with an easy one).
- Go to a wi-fi spot and do some work. Email said work to the bosses. Seriously be productive.
- Give myself the manicure I’ve been meaning to give.
- Buy the RAM for Gram’s computer.
- Write at least five letters to my pals.
- Write an entry for dear_you.
- Avoid mental stresses other than ones work-related.

Yeah, that’s enough for one day.

Boy, has this gotten tough. In the past month, I finished chemo and kept going to work through sheer strength of will. And then was diagnosed with a stupid complication that was more life-threatening than the cancer ever was, and is completely touch-and-go. I was stuck in the hospital for two weeks and at home for two weeks, and now. I’ve left my job because of it. It keeps me from making any plans ever, since things change so quickly. And I can’t travel, since leaving the doctors is bad, plus no money in the first place.

Being a person of action at this point means mental action, I think. Taking mental stock, sorting these various crises of faith I have going on. Writing it all down and trying to figure it all out. And in the meantime, doing everything I can to heal up my lungs … which means doing as little as possible. True irony, that.

I had a great day today as far as action goes, which is funny. It’s not a “good energy” day for me, at all. But I got a lot done – got my application in for the PAF CPR program (after 6 hours on hold – YES!), got lots of work done, got my blood draw on time, and got tons of stuff cleaned out of my room/closets and down to be donated. Whoo!

Since my last entry six weeks ago, I’ve been pro-active about the financial aspect of my medical treatment – boy, have I. I’ve sorted all the bills and all the EOBs and made a spreadsheet of the costs, etc. I’ve submitted requests to the assistance programs I was accepted for, and submitted the appropriate paperwork to the hospital to set up a payment plan. I plan to speak to a bankruptcy attorney soon, about whether or not banko is a good option for me. I’m frustrated about the money situation … but at least I’m doing something about it.