make the first move...

<3 i love my bf... we've been dating for what.....3 months? i want to kiss him <3

Not as difficult as I thought it would be. My girlfriend likes aggression, so as she went to turn away I grabbed her arm, spun her around and planted one right on her. All this time I’ve been worried and over-thinking the whole thing. Now I realize it’s really not that hard if you just do it!

That was the beginning of many great things for me…

I’m finally back in the dating game after being out for about a year. There’s this girl at my work (technically, she’s my boss) who’s been flirting with me back and forth for about six months now. For the longest time, we weren’t sure if it was just a friend thing or if it might be something more. We definitely have that yin-yang complex. She’s very loud, abrasive, outgoing, she drinks and smokes, she has like 900 friends and she’s 4 years older than me. I’m more reserved, don’t always have to get into every conversation, I don’t drink or smoke, I have a much smaller social circle. But for some reason, whenever she and I are alone, we just “click.” I calm her down and she gets me going. It’s an odd pairing.

Anyway, last night we went out to Logan’s Roadhouse and had dinner together. We both liked it and the conversation flowed really well, so she invited me back to her house to watch movies. Up to that point, we hadn’t done anything more than just “being friends”, though there had been subtle hints back and forth. To make a long story short, she threw about one hundred hints at me last night but I was too scared to make the first move. She eventually got tired of waiting and just walked over and laid it right on me (YES!!!)

After that magic moment, we talked about our whole situation for about two hours. We agreed that it’s very risky to try anything together, because there’s a good chance that a failed relationship could mean the end of our friendship, too. But we’re going to take it slow and see if it feels right or not. BUT, the thing was, she said she’s not making the first move anymore and she challenged me to do it. That makes me a bit nervous, because I’ve never had to initiate anything within a relationship before. But like I said, she raises my confidence when I’m around her, so I’m hoping I’ll have the courage to make the first move from now on.

I hope so, or I’m going to be one sad puppy! I’m working on it…

yes, i want to do this

This is going to be the goal I focus on most, for now at least. All part of the big plan…

I just give up.
I will die alone.
That’s it.
I admit it.

Can it be over now already?

I’m a retard. I really don’t know where I belong in the world of romantics and sexual desire. Instead of dating my friends brother and all of his friends that would hit on me, I told them that I was a LESBIAN. They didn’t believe this because they knew that I had never dated or been kissed by anyone. So I told them that I was ASEXUAL (not really), and to just leave it like that because I don’t like anyone. They told me that I would “never know until I try”. Ughhh! So I really think that I’m a lesbian. I have wild sexual comforting dreams most with women in them. I would actually like to date a lot of straight girls that I know. Before my Freshman year in high school I said I would be open and try out guys and girls and called myself BISEXUAL.

So about this special someone…
My Sophomore year this guy that I was really friendly with, nothing more but we were close, reminded me that I’m a real human and I am attractive and I get noticed. Despite the fact that I still think I’m the ugliest creature on the planet, when I would hang around with him I would just be another being. I knew he smoked weed and he’d always ask me for apples (to smoke from) ;] and well, I love weed but he never knew that. I would love to toke with him now. So one day he was the only one who noticed something that no one else, and not even in my expectations for anyones knowledge, that I had trimmed the side of my hair just a little bit so that it would bob and slant down towards my face like the other side of my head. I was shocked but not ecstatic like a little girl who would swoon at a popular boy talking to her. I never really noticed how much I liked him. I liked how strong he was. I did not like it when his head was shaved because it would look huge. I liked how he copied off of me but it was not because he was stupid; he’s not. My Junior year, away from the school that I was where he was, I would nonchalantly and absentmindedly think about him, wonder what he was doing, and eventually have romantic daydreams and sexual dreams at night about him. Crazy.

My senior year, this year, I am back at my old school. I looked around for him everyday until some girl told me that he had been in a car accident just before school started. For some reason I already knew he was okay. At the beginning of last week I had seen him walking down the hallway with a bunch of guys around him talking about how they missed him. He was limping and I saw the brace around his leg. I hid myself behind people and kept walking so he wouldn’t see me. The first thought in my head is “Weakness is a huge turnoff”. Why the FUCK did I think that? Slap me with a fistful of regret and insolence!

I was filing in the office 7th hour today and I stand up and see him standing there with a huge smile across his face. Why didn’t I run over to hug him? Already my thoughts are getting ahead of me It was small talk. How are you? Look at my scars from the car accident. Drunk Driver. No joke. (I felt like I was smiling to much. How did I look? Were there zits on my face?) “Actually, I came here to see you.” Stop the presses.

EDIT: I’m stupid. No one loves me like how I dream they would love me. Ugh. Stop Dreaming So Much!

Sometimes you have to just make the first move. It took me a bunch of times to get him to notice me, but it finally worked and we dated. It didn’t work out, but it was definately worth it.

yeah, I’m pretty old-fashioned myself when it comes to relationships… so I waited for my crush to make the first move…and he did! and things ended up perfectly for us. we’re together, it’s been 2 months, and things are going great : ]

Reminds me of a song. “Your Love” by the Outfield…

http://music.aol.com/video/your-love/the-outfield/1386795

OK so maybe thats not what the song is about. lol. but theres a verse that reminds me … :)