do better in school

I keep failing… I think I need some help or something. I just can’t take school seriously anymore.

My last two finals are tomorrow! I’m very excited to have this school year done!!! My very last summer vacation from school in my whole life starts Wednesday, and I can hardly wait!

Basically, I’m planning on a B in my Death and Dying class, and if I get an A on the final in my Chicano Family class I will get a B for the whole semester. I know I have As in all of my other classes…so it’s down to these two and I’ll mark this off (for the time being…). Wish me luck!

it seems like i dont even care about school anymore… i try to. but there is so much stress, and it is way too hard. i am failing biology and spanish, and theres only 4 weeks left of school. i dont even know what to do…

at my school we have 45 minutes everyday, which is kinda like a schoolwide study hall or something. where we can go to any class we need help in. so im thinkin the last 4 weeks are gunna be spent in those 2 classes.

MAN im dumb. i skip school so much. so im gunna go to every class from now on. and use my spare time on school. ill let you know how this goes….

What I ment by this is try harder, get better marks care more. But now that I’ve finished school I think I’ve done well :)
(you know simply for not quitiing)

The 10 page paper was turned in on Tuesday after a grueling all-nighter…I’m still trying to recover my sleep schedule. But, the paper looked good, and the speech about the paper was well received by the whole class (I even got a laugh or two!). The other speech I had in the other class went better than expected – I got an A! Dress rehearsal was good this morning and tomorrow’s concerts should be fantastic. All that I have now are my finals, and I feel really well prepared for that!

So, if I get Bs and higher on my transcript this semester, I will mark this goal as done (at least until the fall….)

1 10-15 minute presentation (Thursday)
Dress Rehearsal (Saturday)
Concerts (Sunday)
Finals on South Campus (5/5-6)
Finals on Main Campus (5/13)

Oh, how I can’t wait for this semester to be over!

1 one page article response

1 ten page research paper

2 10-15 minute oral presentations on the 2 research papers I’ve written this semester

I finished 2 of my little assignments earlier tonight. The oral presentations won’t take me too long (it’s just regurgitation of the papers I’ve written this semester). The 1 page response will take me half an hour.

The only problem I’m having is with the 10 pager. I’ve never been terribly good at writing research papers, and I’ve been having trouble getting motivated to really start this one. I do have 3 pages down and a good collection of talking points, but the information I’m looking for is hard to find…and it’s due in just a few days. I’m nervous that it’s going to be a bad paper (I’m graduating next year and I have yet to pass the freshman English research paper class…). But, I know I’ll get it done. I can do it!

2 two page responses to the Western Social Science Association conference panels I attended

1 one page article response

1 ten page research paper

2 10-15 minute oral presentations on the 2 research papers I’ve written this semester

The fun part will be scheduling this in between work…full time this weekend baby! Wish me luck (I may need it…)...

I am so stressed about school right now. I dropped out of highschool midway through my junior year. I’m now in this program at my community college that allows me to make up missing high school credits and adjust to college simultaneously, but I still compare myself to people who graduated from my high school and are in universities, and I feel like crap about myself. I’m not a stupid kid but I don’t know if I have the discipline and skills it takes to get through college. I’m always doubting myself and I can never stay on top of anything. Sometimes I really feel like drowning myself because I can’t keep up with others in society. I feel like such a loser.

So, I’m starting to get into the habit of doing homework on the downtime at work, which is actually helping a lot. It “magically” creates time for me to do other things! I’m going to try to make this a regular habit, so that when I get home and don’t feel like doing anything I don’t feel so guilty about it….