face the fact that I drink too much and stop doing it.

I have really gotten my weekends in perspective. It has helped greatly that I went to my doctor and he prescribed pain meds. This was the primary reason I drank so much. Now, I have a low dose medication that I take through out the day. I actually had a beer last night…It was refreshing. I feel like I haven’t been drunk in quite a while. :-) And I’m happy about that.

I did make considerable progress this weekend. I intended on going the entire weekend with no alcohol of any kind. A major feat for me. I made it until about 12:30 Friday night/Sat. morning. I had 2 shots of tequilla. Didn’t phase me. But that’s all I drank all weekend. So while I didn’t accomplish the goal I had set for the weekend, I did make considerable progress.

Every weekend, and a couple of nights a week. Either a beer, or a beer and then some. My kidney’s can’t handle it. I have to stop ignoring my body’s cry and stop drinking so much alcohol. It’s a release for me, to not hurt, physically. But it’s becoming too frequent. Even my friends have noted this and have been upset with me about having a beer in my hand all the time. It’s very difficult. I don’t feel as though I have a drinking problem. But I don’t want to stop drinking either. I enjoy it. It relaxes me and it makes the pain more managable. But I feel as though it’s getting excessive. So I’m going to slow it down…and/or stop…haven’t decided that yet.