get out of this rut

It’s sort of been ever since Christmas that I have felt I’m just bumming around and not really doing with my life what I would like to do.

There are lots of things on my list, and some not even on my list that I would love to get down and complete but being stuck in this rut is preventing me from doing this.

It’s starts at the fact that I have been going out a lot and then don’t wake up when I would like to and spend a great deal of time in bed. To my friend this is how she has always been, and thinks nothing of it, but when I used to be able to wake up promptly at 7:00am, get washed and dressed by 8:00am, and get stuck in with doing what I wanted to in my day, now I feel sort of lost… waking up at 12:00pm and just wasting my days. I feel I am loosing half of each day!

There’s also the fact that I do spend a lot of time on the internet, but this isn’t really the problem, because I have become more able to just turn my attention to something else, without the internet being a distraction.

This week I really want to try and change the way I go about things, I want to get back into my swimming, something that I haven’t done since around Christmas time, and I want to get some routine into my life… I had it before Christmas, but now it’s gone… where?

Here’s hoping I can sort myself out and begin to do the things I’ve been meaning to for quite sometime!

So, I think in a year I put myself into a ru, I always been a homebody , ever isnce I can remember ,but I think that right now, I ‘m not going to do that. I think I’m gonna start calling my friends again and hanging out with people cause I can’t keep staying inside forever its a thoughtt I don’t know got to get ready for work

i feel kinda lost these days

...but my husband is still in a rut. I really want to understand how to be supportive and what to do to help him. I REALLY, REALLY want to know and help.
Last night a friend told me that I needed to just be patient, because it won’t help for me to just start telling him what to do…. I know that is all true. Now I just need to decide to do it.

earlier this year i was in a rut in terms of school and people. i wasn’t getting work done because i couldn’t, not because i didn’t want to. now i’m just being lazy – so the whole mental barrier thing isn’t happening anymore, which is a step forward.

people, well, i’m learning to like more of them/get along better. most, anyway =]

I cant figue me out at all when I have somthing really good going for me I throw it in for no good reason and end up in a rut with no money and depressed! I am so frustrated with myself its untrue! I have had enough now and maybe I need to have had enough in order to understand or apreciate my next job/path??? I dont know Im real down today things arnt great, prospects are good though just this present moment in time i wanna curl up, hug up to someone and forget the world outside! I just have such drive for my dreams and then the reality doesnt match up!!! Really gutting I need to forget every one else and find me! some one once told me I have to heal myself first before I can heal others, I understand what was being said but just struggling! Sorry for the boo who poor me jargon, but I just needed to get that out there, I hide all the crap and depression every day from every one in my life its so easy to talk to a computor screen and strangers!

I just got a phone call that indicates the end of my rut may be near. At least the end is in sight.

“giving up” on this, I’m just taking it off my list. I have my “beat my depression” goal and others to make entries on progress and if I feel I’m out of my rut, then I’ll come back and mark it complete.

Yipee!! I think I’ve actually gotten out of the rut I was in. I don’t really feel like going into details, but I’m pretty sure I’m out for good. I just needed a little help climbing out was all. Well ok, it was actually more like somebody coming and dragging me out crying and pouting all the way out, but never the less, I’m out now. Thanks to the people who helped me, I’m on my wasy again Lord willing. It feels good to be happy and content again.