figure out what i want to do

i think this is the reason for unhappiness. since i have no real idea for the future im living just for the moment, since i have nothing to look forward to. i really need to figure out what i wanna do with my life so i can pull out of this.

arg!

I find myself in a spot of life being content with doing nothing. Working a job, hanging out with the girlfriend and friends, sleeping and doing it all over again the next day. I have no real drive to progress in life. No real drive to do anything. Because I want to do it all. Hopefully some day I will be able to say I did it all. I want to travel via being in the military that’d be fun, or helping people around the world. Being a lawyer or buisness owner also sounds a lot of fun. I have a good amount of general knowledge about all these where I could truly do them all and be great at them. I have a good amount of general knowledge of basically everything under the sun and it all sounds so interesting and great. But I am strangly content with sitting around doing nothing and going no where fast. I was going to college for a bit but my motivational problem soon took over and I lost all care for going. I can not keep my motivation up for anything. Not for holding a job, going to school, anything that I need to progress in life. Maybe I don’t want to progress whatever it is I want it to go away and figure out what i want to do. Any ideas or suggestions are welcomed and will be greatly appreciated.

Name: Eclectia

hmmm… difficult to decide upon…

How about coffee…
How about hot air balloon…
How about a country…
How about a person…

I can go on and on and on…

But, I don’t have capital for that yet. And I don’t have a clear-cut idea of how to go about it. I don’t know what specific industry I would want to go into…

Tourism… booming sector in the country now. But it’s a little saturated. It would be good if I have a unique somethingto offer.

Service… this is also good. The company I’m working for right now belongs under this sector

I’m thinking of taking a Master’s degree in Microbiology either here in the country or abraod.

Advantages of taking it here:
*Don’t have to worry much about where to stay
*Don’t have to worry about adjusting to a different culture, etc.
*Don’t have to worry much about the tuition fees etc. I can save for it.

Advantages of taking it abroad:
*More choices of majors..here, I’ll end up taking the master’s degree in the field of Public Health,or others, or just take up General Microbiology
*Great on the resume
*More chance of getting hands-on experiences, the equipments are more advanced
*More chance for research

But…
*getting into a school abroad through scholarship is difficult
*how long will I have to save?

For now, I would just want to work or study (get my MS) or both. It would do me a lot of good living somewhere else, outside my comfort zone… Have new experiences, those I won’t be able to get here… Discover another side of me… Earn more than what I do right now… Just go…

Everytime I think I know what I want to do, I change my mind. It’s like I don’t know what I really want. I know myself and am not fickle when it comes to other things in life. Not knowing what I want to do is really depressing when everyone around me does.

I went back to college to get a different degree in what i really wanted to do 4 classes left ..shoulda done it a while ago!!!!