Let go of my worries and my paranoia and learn to relax

to just be able to sit at home without anything on my mind. im a young person i dont need this. if i could i would cut this part of my brain out.
i want to be able to not have a thing worrying me or tormenting me. and not get so angry about ir. i really want itto stop.
i cant cope with it.

I really don’t know how to start this..any way here we go I will give it my best shot..
Ello everyone I’m Bob/Rob and I sure have a problem, that I would love to figure out and start living my life like a normal human…free of paranoia, worries and stress. .
I have a massive OCD illness on me case..I can hardly do anything with out, checking it like 8 or 11 times or taping it..if you know what I mean…sorry guys I’m having a difficult time putting this down..any way..I’m also paranoid about people looking at me and talking about me..I’m having a difficult time walking on the street, because i’m always thinking that people are looking at me judging me…it all started when few of me mates started winding me up that I look foreign cuz of me mum..you see she is half italian half bulgarian and me dad is british…any way ever since me mates started winding me up I’ve started thinking that i actually do look foreign and that people are looking at me on the street saying..look at this guy he is a foreign and all that..it got so serious that i’m actually struggling doing all the things that i use to love and enjoy doing..like riding my bike, walking on the beach and just walking around town..with out me getting extremely paranoid about people looking at me and talking about me..and also ever since my girlfriend left me Ive had trouble starting a new relationship even just getting close to girl..with out the fear that she might ditch me after few weeks…it has been nearly 4 years since ive had a gfried…i’m nearly 22..please I really want to let go..of all this fears and start enjoying my life 2 the max…and start doing all the things that I use 2 love doing…Its really serious please help me out….I’m sick of hearing all these voices in my head they are driving me mad/nuts…I’m having a really difficult time, with it…its even interfering with my university work…i wanna stop being paranoid, stressed and get rid of this stupid OCD…
Please help me out..
Thank you

any tips, advise of how to deal with this, and just wipe it out of me brain that would be fantastic.

like a couple of people on here i always think the worst i always manage to make a mountain out of a mole hill, i worry what people think about me and i worry that when things are going fine something is bound to go wrong because i feel jinxed and then i usually make something happen ie my boyfriend gets annoyed coz he doesnt understand why im so paranoid he thing is i dont know why a am. I suppose ive always worried even from bein at school i felt like i always needed to be praised not because i got a big head about it but just so i knew i was doing whatever right. i hate that i havent got the confidence to just jump in at the deep end when doing something like just talking to people i only feel confident around the people i already know coz i feel like they wont judge me as they know what im like. i hate the fact that people think im vain coz i always have to have my hair and make up done but if i didnt i wouldnt be able to leave the house! im a hairdresser and i talk to people all day long so why cant i talk to old friends without feeling awkward? all i want is to be able to take in what my boyfriend says and trust him, to be honest its not just pulling us apart but its makin me feel so weak like i dont belong here. i dont know what else to do i feel like a fool coz ive never had any major issues to deal with i feel like a lost little girl so alone in the dark please help i dont wana lose my boyfriend im so scared

I worry about EVERYTHING – you name it, I’m worried about it. I have major OCD at horrible times, such as when I’m trying to go to bed. I check everything before I can get to bed. Some nights, it takes me up to an hour, because I’m checking and counting the same god damned things over and over and over again. I want to desperately to calm my OCD and anxiety. It takes a toll on so many things in my life – my relationship with my husband, work, my sanity (to name a few)...

I need help but can’t get it right now.

I have been struggling with anxiety for most of my life. I want to learn to let go.

I just wish that i could believe that everything he says is true. I wish i could believe that it is completely harmless. I wish i could walk away from my home and not worry all day about if i have unplugged my curling iron. I wish that i could leave my car parked in a parking lot without keeping check on it so i can make sure no one broke into it or it isn’t being towed away. I wish i could stop thinking that maybe this cold is something worse. I wish i could stop thinking that tomorrow may be my last day alive. I wish i could just get over these irrationalities and enjoy my life, myself and my relationships…

it was hard but you just have to eliminate things which are too difficult to deal with and come back to them after a bit prepared to achieve and with an OPEN MIND to them =]

music helped me alot. i left my band and “went solo” for a bit just to chill by myself and get my music to feel more personal.

recently i have been writing a blog of everything that i feel has either gone wronge or just made me stressed out and it has helped alot! i still get stressed out but i know all i need to do is write it down and get it out of my head or go for a long walk/run listening to music to destress!
xxxxx

I want to stop worrying about everything and learn to live life. I used to be able to then I dont know what happened.I just constantly worry. I worry that im not good enough for anyone, that ppl wont like me…etc. I am constantly accusing my boyfriend of hooking up with his ex because theyre still good friends. even tho i have no proof, he starting to not tell me things anymore cuz i look for things he says and then accuse him. :( PARANOIA AND WORRYING IS RUINING MY LIFE! I just want to be a relaxed person !!!

I think of all my things, this is the most important one I need to achieve right now. My paranoia makes me feel incredibly pathetic.

Last year it pushed me to the edge. I noticed that I had a peculiar ear infection. I sort of passed it off and tried telling myself it was nothing, but a month later I also noticed that my lymph nodes on my neck were swollen. I began to panic, thinking that I had cancer or something. So I went to the doctor, thinking that it might help, but it didn’t, at all. They had no idea what was wrong with me. They had never seen anything at all like what was going on behind my ears, and claimed that I was a “medical mystery.”

Now anyone who is paranoid can understand how hearing that might freak me out a bit. Even though they assured me that I was not dying, I could not get through the night without having panic attacks. I had numerous blood tests, but they never figured out exactly what was “wrong with me.” To add to all that, because of my stress, paranoia, and anxiety, I started to lose my hair. I had a few small bald spots on my head!

I think I might have Cotards syndrome as well. That is when you think you are dead. Sometimes I have dreams that I am dying of an illness or something, and I wake up in the middle of the night and think I am dead. It’s just for a split second, but for that one moment in time, my paranoia makes me think I am actually dead.

I worry about everything. If I am in a car or a plane, I am afraid I might crash. I don’t go on rollercoasters. I don’t take any risks. I DON’T LIVE MY LIFE. I don’t want to be afraid anymore.