art

of the day when I have a driver’s license and a car
then I can just go on a roadtrip across Europe and see all the art I want to see… could write a book about it… anyone done that yet…? 1 week ago

for book illustrations. checked online for advice about this particular motif, didn’t find anything that really came close, tried without and am quite happy with the result. sketches, so far, but possible. will try some watercolours next. 2 weeks ago

learning quite a lot about them these days, as they are part of what my thesis is about. eastern orthodox spirituality is really worth having a look at. recommend it… my favourite, now and maybe forever, is still Rublev’s Trinity, but I slowly understand them better in general, the particular style, the symbolism behind it, their meaning for worship, prayer, contemplation and Russian art. And I have Rilke to thank for that… 4 weeks ago

Christ who is born the same way we all are, who wants to play with us, who wants to be held and caressed and loved, same way as every child, who learns to talk and to walk and to sing and to dance and who grows into his life’s choices as we all do.
Born into poverty and homelessness, his parents having a relationship crisis, strangers saying strange things about him…and in danger of being killed because of a prophesy someone else made about him.
Is it HIS life? Is it theirs?
The day will come when he will realise that it is his life only in all its fullness if he makes the choice that he is called to make, and able to make – to be all he is for others. Whether they know it or not. He is gift. He is given.
As we all are. We are gifts to ourselves. God’s greatest gift in your life is – you. And you are the gift, too, that God gives to those around you. Engage with the world. You are wanted, and blessed. 1 month ago

boxes full of art material that I can’t take with me. but there is always space for a set of watercolours, a pencil and paper. for my camera, too.
all will be well. I will create. 2 months ago

somewhere in there will be my future vocation…that I am slowly growing into. what shape it will take, I don’t know. just as I don’t know where my brush will take me, or God when I pray… 2 months ago

all around me – it’s autumn.
look.
... 3 months ago

this weekend?
So looking forward to seeing the exhibition!!!
Know some people with a membership card for the gallery, I can borrow one… :)
Ah, great art, great art, experience… 4 months ago

looks stunning :). and I’ve realised how much I am actually exhibiting. so many photographs, and 8 paintings, and then I got those cards printed too. I hope we’ll get many people in, and I hope I will feel okay next week after having spent the entire weekend at work too. for myself, yes, but rest is something else… good people around, though. hope for some good conversations :). will take my journal, a Rilke book and something to create art with me ;)...while I am waiting for people. maybe I won’t need it, but just sitting around is not what I want to do with my time, not even at my own exhibition… 4 months ago

for the exhibition this weekend. I mounted all the photographs, and am honestly tired now. Tomorrow, after work, we will set up everything, long night, and long days during to the weekend to come. Hope it will feel good still :). 4 months ago

that’s what they call it. I read up on how to paint on plastics etc, and have done it now anyway without special preparation, and it seems to work just fine.
Painting old LPs, to be exact. And chestnuts.
The chestnuts might prove more difficult. Organic, changing, shrinking with time. But we’ll see.
Using acrylics for the LPs, got 10 for £2 at a charity shop. All with classical music. And I write the composer’s name on each of them. Some people might feel like I’m violating them, I guess… But who has an LP player, still, anyway? It’s still inspired by the music. Mendelssohn, Rachmaninov…
We’ll see what comes of this… 4 months ago

coming up in two weeks, and I’m already kneedeep in preparation :)!! I chose what will go in – photography, painting, installation art and some cards I ordered with my motifs on them, I priced everything, wrote the catalogue and the labels (just needs to be printed) and some information about me, and I’m almost set. Need to get mounts for the photographs but I’ll keep that simple this time. A little thinking about presentation in the next few weeks, maybe I’ll offer a chance to be creative to the visitors as well :)...we’ll see. so far, so good :). 4 months ago

Making Art is life the rest is just details. 5 months ago

today, I am an artist. because I have four artworks in an exhibition. which will open tonight.
I am going there this morning to set up the installation, and tonight I will drink champagne there and celebrate.
I am still working on my confidence, making an effort to say, I am an artist. I am. I cannot live without creating. I need to paint. I need to express. I need to show what I see the way I have seen it. I need to explore who we all are, humanity, what this is. I cannot live without asking these questions, drove them crazy with it. left them because they couldn’t deal with it. but I am here. I ask. I search. I create. 5 months ago

...opens the exhibition :D!!!! private viewing Saturday night, and then it’s on for two weeks.
3 photographies and one installation.
no-one in my family has ever done anything like this.
I am proud of myself.
(and I don’t say that often) 5 months ago

I am still in the creative process for the assemblage piece I will add to the “hair” exhibition. So far, much of the practical ideas had come from a friend, and, of course, I don’t want to exhibit her inspiration, even though she gave it to me freely, but mine. So I ponder about this, and try to find ways to make it my own, an artwork personal to me, thought through and expressing something about me that connects the experience with the world around me. There is slow progress and it is growing into something that I recognise, and own. 5 months ago

there is another exhibition that I will take part in, in about 4 weeks, and I will exhibit a lot more there than at the “hair” exhibition. so, I did some preparation work for it today – I ordered cards online with my artworks printed on them, a little incentive and an added bonus for me financially, I hope :). I don’t know how much I will sell with this, but even if it’s £10, I will have earned this money doing exactly what I love. And I’m curious to see how these first steps will go. The dream might grow :). And I think it will grow just from the experience of exhibiting, not from the income…
This year is full of satisfying creative moments. And I store them all with care and love inside of me, my treasure chest. For hungry times. Or for counting my blessings :). 5 months ago

finally. I will have three of my photographs and one “installation”, or however you want to categorise that, in an exhibition. My name, material, title, size, price on the label. On the topic of hair, funnily enough. And why not…
I bought the frames last night, they are beautiful, black with white mounts, simple and elegant. I need to cut a new mount for the smallest one, it doesn’t quite work with the way I bought it.
And then, next Saturday, I will go to the private viewing…
This feels deeply, seriously, delightfully satisfying. 5 months ago

I’m still doing it, one week after the holidays are over, in two different ways. One is a little drawing, without my glasses on, right after waking up – a friend suggested that time. The drawings look like nothing but it’s interesting for me what is in my head at that time.
The second one is after work (often while watching/listening to Inside The Actor’s Studio interviews :)...), and then I use pastels, (coloured) pencils, watercolours, gouache, acrylics, a biro, wax pencils, whatever I feel like, it’s all in one A3 sized sketch book, and it’s a rather interesting variety. Some have to do with exhibitions I’ve seen or the theatre, some are an expression of emotion (like the page-destroying biro drawing I wrote about in the last entry), some play with ideas, some are an expression of what is going on in my head, unplanned, not consciously thought of, and they are the most interesting to me. The reveal me to myself in some ways, and I learn. I also learn more about drawing – if I want to draw a body part, an eye, a nose, a hand, and I can’t remember how to do it – it doesn’t just fall into my lap out of the blue sky like for some naturally gifted artists – then I look at drawing lessons online, I google “drawing eye” and see what there is and take instruction from it, and then it looks okay what I do. I don’t do exact copies, I do it my way, but maybe this way I will learn to look more closely at things so I can remember later what I saw…
It’s become really important for me to do this, and at the moment it replaces journalling, I think. 5 months ago

I destroyed three pages raging with a biro.
And wrote underneath it, “And still not satisfied”
Unbelievable how much unexpressed rage there is in me, tension, screaming; I scream in silence so far, but at least my pen screams aloud, visually. 5 months ago

so, the summer. regular drawing and collages and watercolours, and a majorly exciting Tracey Emin exhibition that pushed my horizon several yards further :).
time now to calmly and constructively walk back into the work I do, and keep supporting my artist self, plan ahead, book tickets for exhibitions, take time to draw and create,
and keep writing. 5 months ago

watercolours, gouache, drawing and photography to balance the writing work for my studies. colours, colours, colours. my daily bread. 6 months ago

some art project over the summer, something that doesn’t take up huge amounts of time but gives me ideas and energy and inspiration – fun and creativity to balance work. 6 months ago