Let things go

if your going to lie to me…have a good memory

I just need to learn how to let thangs go like i use to, i use to have to best state of mind. I hardly worried, i would let it ride and just let thangs work out on its own. My sayings were “Everything happens for a reason” and “There is always someone out there that has it worse than you”. But some how i have lost that some where, and while im on this path of trying to find myself, i just hope i can get back to that state of mind. There is really no need to let thangs get to you, there here then there gone, its in the past. And i thank i might be pushing the one girl i love and always will love away because of it.

I harbor so many ill thoughts about the past, people, the weather, myself, the existence of mosquitoes…I just want to let em go.

I never ever thought this could be so difficult. Just putting something aside when it comes up. I know it will do me no good to dwell on it, but for some reason it lingers on anyway. It just drains me completely.

This might be the “thing” of a lifetime really. Might be the key to a lot of stuff that is in the way.

keep the memories
but dont dwell on them
better yet
use them
to guide the future in ur direction….
my direction..

I have to admit, change scares me. Life become such a routine that when things become negative, I have a hard time letting things go. It’s get easier once I accept that being miserable is not how I want to feel. If I don’t allow myself to move on, I can’t grow and learn from it. It would only make me angry and depress and I don’t want to live that way. I have to constantly remind myself, if I don’t let things go that are bad for me, I can’t move on to bigger & better things.

i have a ‘best friend’. She’s found some new friends or best friends and has left me in the dust. or dusk. she moved from our home town. but i move before her and still kept in touch but now she went to Europe and although she has called me i feel something between us and she won’t open up to me or be honest she just says “she doesnt know whats wrong” but she is the kind of person who analyzes every thing and knows when most things are wrong. Well quite frankly i don’t want it to come down to Leaving her behind. but What if i have to? My question to you all is how do you let a Friend Go.

signed,
missing out.

Makin’ progress…

got to work on this one. i keep adding up all the things i haven’t accomplished. if i don’t let them go i won’t be able to move on to new pursuits.

I want to be able to stop dwelling on the negative and be happy that my life is pretty great even if it didn’t turn out the way I expected it to.