Actively working on this – doing a better job 1 month ago

“It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it.”

- Jodi Picoult

I have mixed feelings today.

I don’t know how to let it out because I don’t quite know what it is.

I do know I’m surprised and I know I’m disappointed.
I also know that my reaction is entirely my choice.

I can dwell on it, or I can learn from it.
I can move forward, or I can take a step back.

It may work out, or it may not make any difference.

_{...But tomorrow is a new day.}8 months ago

... could mean anything! Letting go of hardships, challenges and disappointments; letting go of “failing”, and turning each of those into opportunities is a wonderful way of living. I can’t say that I always do let go – after all it is a work in progress. However, I think that I’ve been through enough change to say that I know how to let go. 8 months ago

Sometimes, I need to remind myself that everything is exactly the way it’s meant to be.
It either works out or it doesn’t… I’ll take my chances with those odds. 10 months ago

But then maybe that’s the first step towards realizing that there’s something more, something bigger one must let go of.

Yes, that sounds philosophical enough… I’ll go with it.

Seriously though, I had a rough day.

Mostly due to dissatisfaction with certain circumstances and impatience with others. Throw some hormones into the mix and you get an idea of how I feel. 10 months ago

Sometimes you stand up for what’s right.
Even if it means treading on people’s toes. 10 months ago

A few hours of sleep coupled with an overload of work can be lethal by the end of the week. The people coming at me from all angles yesterday should’ve known that.

No yelling at anyone.
No snarky comments.
No requests to transfer.

I am making progress. Ha.

*DISCLAIMER I’m really not as unpleasant as I make myself out to be. 10 months ago

My inability to let things go is something that really needs work.

I mean, desperately.

I’m constantly allowing myself to get irritated, upset and sad at the things some people say and do. It’s human nature, I know, but there comes a point when you’re really just inching backwards or going nowhere, at best.

I have to really learn to bite my tongue.
I have to remind myself of what I want.
I have to be just a little more tolerant.

I have to breathe and let it go. 10 months ago

U cant hv everything wt u wish to hv even though its pracious. 12 months ago

This is a bit of an ongoing goal, but the fact that I recognize when I am needing to do this is enough for me to move it to the completed section. 16 months ago

If you’ve seen my house, you know I’ve done this long ago. Seriously, I’m done with blame and guilt for snoozing. It’s gone. I’m done with the unnecessary. 17 months ago

...I sing a song in my head that makes me happy. =) 21 months ago

that i find myself being more and more emotionless. maybe i push myself too much. 21 months ago

well, he returned. he requested to become friends at facebook, and i dont know what i’m trying to prove, but i approved. he brought up the past in his first post on my wall, and though i told him that i’ve forgot everything that happened, i found myself being so cold to him. in a way, i feel like a loser for acting like that. i mean, he is being childish trying to sweet-talking me. why did i have to be childish myself by taking it to heart? ignore him, for god sake.

it’s not like we dated for years or something. i barely knew the guy. in fact, we never met. and he’s not good looking at all. i thought if i look past the physical appearance, i might find someone who actually like me for me. who knows the girl who is known for being so strong-hearted and very picky at picking boyfriend was fooled by not-handsome-at-all college drop-out. i keep asking myself, what was i thinking? 21 months ago