let go of resentment

I’ve said a fond farewell to lots of stupid crap that I shoulda gotten over years ago. I’m by no means done, but it’s helped me to find a much greater balance in my life, looking at being influenced by NOW instead of way back THEN.

Its a bad trait that runs in my family. I need to get over it too.

It wasn’t easy, it wasn’t me. I think it was time. Reading helped a lot get my mind off of the pain and to understand the hardships of life. That I wasn’t alone. And to grow up and mature. I think I owe a lot to Notes from Underground by Dostoevsky.

How do I know I am cured or almost cured? Because I can sleep at night. I can think of that person and not feel the pain of resentment. I feel more at peace and light. I hope you find your way too.

... it’s not as if I even have any legitimate reason to be.

Not to say that I don’t get annoyed with people, I just don’t let them get under my skin. Bravo!

I recently heard a story about a famous actor who along with his wife resented this couple they were friends with. The resentment lasted for 16 years until one day he got to thinking… while he and his wife were resenting the exfriends all this time… the exfriends were out dancing! So I am going to take from their book… stop wasting my precious energy on resentment and put it towards dancing, enjoying and living well!

I’ve spoken with my dad, estranged for 20+ years.
I’ve exchanged e-mails with my cousin, estranged for 20+ years.

I love it when one can just pick up again and feel forgiven. Or maybe it’s because my mom died and somehow she was a block for these people.