Release All FEAR For ALL Time!!!

I’ve been pretty sure of it for a while but she kept being in denial as if there were no chance on earth of it being so – I never realized anyone could be that much in denial. Kept reminding me of the stories mama would tell me about “pumkinhead’s mama” growing up… how she was so in denial about her pregnancy that she sat down on the toilet to take a poo & shyt out the baby right into the toilet… so to speak.

At some point I had told Brittany that I could see her being like pumkinhead’s mama… she wouldn’t even entertain the possibility.

So, here we are today. Not going to say much more until we know what decision she is going with going forward – but, the more time that passes the fewer choices remain.

I will tell you something – letting go of fear on this one is HUGE… I could name a thousand fears for my son, the baby, the future of them both, & for Brittany, & for everyone involved… for all of us – because we all will be affected regardless… I pray for courage, clarity, wisdom, & understanding for all of us… that Brittany makes the best decision for that child for the future… the one innocent in all of this… WHEW!

Posted this also in my “daily walks with my dog” goal – but, it applies here as well!

So, Saturday the 30th of September I took Rhashida to the lake for a once around – or at least an attempt – that turned into a near nightmare of an experience.

The upside: we walked about 3/4’s of the way around the lake – the first time EVER!

The downside: yeah, I ended up almost getting assaulted or worse.

In the end – physically, I am just fine. But, I find myself dealing with a bit more anxiety & fear trying to creap in. I’m not the type to fear people. I love talking to strangers & getting to know all sorts of little somethings about their worlds. But, I goofed this time & it really coulda cost me. I had a critical error in judgment about trust & feel a bit uncomfortable with my own ability to make appropriate SAFE decisions.

I’ll get over it – but, for now – I’m hesitant.

The walk was wonderful – I’ve gone on one today with her too – that was a big step – given my anxiety. I don’t want to give fear room to grow & breed. I realize that this is how major disfunction, anxiety disorders, psychological traumas develop. The truth, though, is that we have control of how we choose to live our lives from A to Z.

I still choose to live without fear. I still choose to work towards those daily walks with my dog. Getting closer to both – with a few setbacks along the way!

... God help me on this:

Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.
Parent from love – not fear.

Shoot…

LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…
LOVE FROM LOVE— NOT FEAR…

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE NOT FEAR

Two fairly simply principles – yet I still have not managed to master them… ha haaaaaaa