go out less

a hard challenge for me :p

Im saving up more money,, which is so better 4 me! started to cook and focus more on my studies..= success

but going out seems to be taking up so much time….! gna start to go out less to work on my stuff

It would be better for my health and my wallet if i could do this. I’ve been trying for a while to try and cut down to 3 nights out a week but there’s always some flimsy excuse to go out for a drink. Well, there’s the legitimate ones too, like birthdays etc but it’s the ‘i’ve had a crap day at work let’s see who wants a drink’ nights that i need to be more disciplined about.

I have been doing this lately by default.

I seem to have contracted the DEATH COUGH, and it’s not pretty.

Wednesday night, I didn’t feel right. Thursday night, I started hurting, and I knew it was coming. I was at a crazy hotel party at the W hotel on Thursday night after the Every Move a Picture show with the band boys (good friends) and had to bail early because I was feeling totally sick.

There was even an indoor pool and hot tub. Arg! I never pass up a hot tub!

It has been nice to stay at home, cook, read, write, clean the house, see F at night, save money, etc. I’m on a routine/habitual kick so I’m trying to reach a consistency in my days that I’m comfortable with so that they will go more smoothly.

F invited me over for a little care last night, which was really sweet. He took me to Safeway and got me medicine, soup, tea, etc. I layed on the bed with the kitty and coughed a lot.

Thoughtful. He’s been sweet. I like sweet. I love sweet. I like my evenings with him a lot.

Tonight I’m at home, still trying to shake this consumption. I’d like to stay in for most of next week too, so I can get my room in order and not spend a lot of money.

Maybe the death cough is a sign from above to chill the fuck out. Maybe I’m delusional.

I’m not only beeing better but feeling better about this lately.

Before, I’ve tried to do it and the reality was I was only telling myself that beause I’d end up out anyways. And upset with myself for it. It got old.

Perhaps I’ve experienced a lot of apathy lately. Perhaps I need the quiet. Either way I really want to save it up for the weekend where there are a couple things I’m actually looking forward to going to. not having to do so much club promotion lately has taken the obligation out of going out, which is in a big, “used to be fun” phase for me.

Ah, bah humbug.
(But not really you know?)