Stop jumping to conclusions about people- it is a cop out

Seriously I should just say I have done this but I know I will backslide. I am SO much better about this. Keep in mind.. I dont judge people on the street per se. I judge people who will interact with me personally because I am SO afraid of being hurt by others. It is a total self defense mechanism. I think that when I like me … I trust other people more. Lucky for me I am starting to like myself more and more. Someone hit me before my head explodes.

But the person I was about to do it to would not let me! He just stuck in there and waited for me to stop being such a putz. I remember searching my brain for excuses to get away from him and stop the conversation but he just kept being calm and cool and answering me with total honesty. If I had ended a potential friendship with him I would have been missing out on a nice person to both work with and hang out with. Besides if I dont stop jumping to conclusions people are going to start to jump to conclustions about me.

I actually think it is just a way for me to stay safe and secure. I think that if I judge people then I dont have to take the time to get to know them and risk hanging on to them. The older I get the more people seem to fade in and out of my life. I used to think it was because they were flakes… now I think it is because I can be cold and detached. If I find one thing that seems off to me… I bolt.