I am soooooo frustrated right now. Couldn’t take English afterall, because the remaining available English Comp courses are part of some “inclusion” program and apparently, I’m not included.

But while browsing other possibilities, I saw that a Sociology class was open. I figured it would be an interesting course and I could definitely learn something—so I tried to sign up for it and I get a message that says I need to be enrolled in Basic English Comp (the class that precedes English Composition that I’ve already taken..) and College Reading at the same time. So, being the agreeable mother fucker that I am, I figured, what the hell. I haven’t been to school in awhile. Let’s brush up on things and get back into the swing of homework and such.

So I went through the motions of signing up for the classes needed, but nope. I get another message saying, “You’ve already completed Eng-50, you cannot retake the course.”

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So you’d think that I would just be able to take Sociology and reading? Nope. The Sociology class is also part of some program that forces you to enroll in more than one class at a time, but if you’ve already taken any of those courses, you’re fucked.

I eventually was so desperate to get into a class, ANY class (because I won’t ever get an earlier registration date if I don’t), that I’m now taking an online PRE-ALGEBRA course that I don’t even fucking need.

And… yep. That’s it. That’s all I was able to get into. Fucking pathetic. Now I remember why I don’t even fuck with school because this is going to be a waste of money and time. I mean, I took pre-algebra in 6th-7th grade for fuck’s sake.

UGH. I better be able to get into some more serious courses next sememster or I don’t know that I’m going to do this school thing. It’s stressful enough, I want to at least make my time count by taking courses that actually further my education. 3 months ago

...so classes are ferociously packed right now. Apparently it has something to do with the unemployment rate being so high so people have gone back to school? Whatever. All I know is that every class (and I mean EVERY) class I was interested in taking or NEEDED to take is full. Well, except for English Composition, which will be the only class I’m taking this semester. (Well, so long as it doesn’t fill up between now and 8 am.)

I mean, my registration date is pretty late, so I get it.. but.. damn. They don’t even do a wait list at this school or any last minute adds. UGH.

And guys, when I said I looked into a lot of classes I’d be interested in taking—I mean I looked into anything and everything aside from like.. theater, welding or computer programming.

My initial idea was to take English Comp, College Algebra, American Sign Language and a course in Excel (for work-related reasons). But ALL of those were full, aside from english.. so I looked into other courses I was interested in (or knew that I needed). Philosophy, Art Appreciation, Music Appreciation, Anatomy, French, Spanish, Parenting, Nutrition, Biology, Chemistry, Beginning Art, Figure Drawing, Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Illustrator, Intro to Flash, Children’s Literature, Humanities, Interpersonal Communication…

WTFOMGNOWAY. YES. Unfortunately, I’m not joking and every single one of these classes were FULL when I checked them out tonight. I register tomorrow morning, so we’ll see if the English classes even still have openings. (There were only 3 that did. D: WTF.) And before you go suggesting courses at me, know that I do already have some under my belt. (American History, Psychology, Japanese, Photography, various Math and English courses… guess that’s it. Haha. Give me somethin’ else that you found interesting, that wasn’t theater, welding or business/computer programming related.)

It’s. So. Fucking. Frustrating. Well,if I get into an English class, at least I know I’ll get a solid “A”, since my attention won’t be anywhere else. Ugh. Goddamn. 3 months ago

So today I signed back up for college. I’m too late for Winter session, but I’ll be going back in the Spring. Hopefully I will be able to get some financial aid, but if not, fiance and I will make it work. Because I simply can’t do what I’m doing anymore. My job really fucking sucks and there’s never any chance for promotion.

I have things I would love to do, but I have no idea how to get into those fields. So for now, all I really want is a regular fucking job with regular weekday hours with weekends and holidays off. This grocery store job isn’t working out. We’re only closed ONE day of the year and that’s on Christmas Day. I know we get paid extra on holidays, but I don’t care about that. I feel like I’m missing out on everything whenever the holidays come around and then on the weekends when parties and BBQs and things are planned. I hate that I can rarely go because of my random hours.

If I somehow find a way to get into doing something I love, that would be ideal, of course. But if not, a general change in careers is sooo overdue. I don’t want to be working at this grocery store next year. I’m under appreciated there and like I said, promotions are impossible.

I actually realized this a few months ago and put my resume up on monster.com.. But it seems like no matter how capable I know I am, the clerical positions that are available just aren’t willing to give me a chance with my current, previous work experience—which is all food service based. I understand why they dismiss me, but it’s still really frustrating.

So, really, I just need to give in and go back to school. Even though I have no idea what I want to do with myself or how it’ll help.

I’ve seen people go to school and still struggle to find jobs—so it’s scary to put that time, effort and money into something that might not even help my situation. But, hell, I like to learn and I guess overall, it can’t hurt to grow education-wise. So I’m just going to go off my hopes that I will do this and that it will help.

I have hope for myself and my future. 4 months ago