not be lonely

God…those were the best days when i were at the college i`ve known lots of ppl .. and i mean it LOTS of ppl…but now i feel totally lonely…every single person i`ve known there are with other ppl now enjoying and having fun…and me just staying at home all day long it`s been a week now since i have had any kind of fun out of my home…i feel lonely,bored,helpless….
i really dunno what the hell to do …

EDIT: guys read this link its really helpful
http://www.personal-development.com/chuck/loneliness2.htm

Loneliness is unavoidable.
You could have all the friends and family in the world and still be lonely. All that it means is that you are lacking a relationship in which the person can see the true you. Either that, or you are missing the relationship in which you did have such a thing.
I am lonely.
But I am determined to make myself approachable. I am also sixteen years-old, never been kissed, moved twelve times in my life time, been a victim of domestic abuse, and,as a result, have very poor social skills.
The positive side of me is that I took a risk.
The way to escape loneliness is to take risks. Taking risks means that it takes courage. Go out and make yourself available. Make yourself interesting. Don’t hide behind books or a frown because I did both of those things and I was at rock bottom.
I had hit a point where it hurt to have someone look at me or even say my name. If I laughed, it was followed by tears or it looked so completely unnatural so it would scare people away.
But eventuallyi got up the courage and asked a girl to go with me to read some books at my favorite bookstore and we quickly became friends.
It was really hard to get myself up to the point where I felt good enough to be looked at and spoken to. I still struggle with it.
Another friend followed that one, and more after that, but the thing I struggle with now, it that the one person that was my first friend, the only person that truely knows me inside and out has fallen in love with another close friend of mine.
I am constantly being reminded over and over again that I am a third-wheel. It also doesn’t help much that I long for a boyfriend too and being reminded that I don’t have one when I see them together really hurts.
My solution is that I will put myself in the open and make myself the most approachable person I can be.
I can take more risks.
I can have courage.

i have long been expecting of this moment.however, when it is going to happen just in 3 days, i suddenly felt so lonely and even a little terrified.
i stayed in my campus instead of going back home as millions of other chinese, because i had to finish my preparation of TOFEL. frankly, i also want to taste the feeling of hanging outside alone on the new year’s eve ,for the first time in my 20 years’ life. now ,you may say i regret a bit, i want to stay home and be the small child of my parents in my deep heart. but i cann’t change.
now i do everything all by myself, washing, cooking, studying and sleeping. no talk all day long is no longer a terrible thing to me.i missed my grandma and grangpa very much but i can only play the pictures in my mind and let the tears surging in my heart.nothing more can and will be done.
i learn to spare the time more sufficiently and effectively, also tried to read books to release my loneliness. these are precious, i think, and can be reckoned as my achivements in 3 days.
loneliness is not a joke, it is not romantic!
so, happy new year my family, i love you!

It seems like anytime I’m alone i feel really depressed and fill my time with useless things just to make the time go faster… I wish i could function better alone.

i just started college. the funny thing is, i’ve transferred school districts so many times before, that i never thought i’d have trouble meeting people here. not so. it’s hard as fuck. i sit in my dorm all day trying to motivate myself to work. i started school a month ago, and have seen no improvement in any aspect of my social life. the hardest part is, i don’t know what i’m doing wrong. i can’t figure out how other people make friends. i can’t figure out how i made friends before. something has to change….

lately i really had enough of this lonliness. I used to have many friends all the time.. not just party friends but also the ones that I could really talk to. But now I’m very surprised I’ve got no one! NO ONE! I’ve been living in this lonely way for half year, sometimes I thought maybe I was getting better spending time with myself, only myself, and accepting the lonliness, but it’s not true.

Yesterday I saw an amazing rainbow when leaving the office, I was so excited that I wanted to call any friends to go out to see the rainbow, then I found there’s no one in this city I could call…

I dont know when this kind of sh*t life will end.
I’m depressed.

I want to stop being lonely. I want to find someone who loves me and I want to love them. I am tired of being used. I want to die. I have a useless, worthless piece of shit of a life. I hate myself. I just want to end it all. I tired of feeling like this. I feel so freakin lonely.

my friend is leaving me so he can go to hawaii and work. I don’t know what to do now… I hate being lonely it makes me feel insane. Most of the people I met are assholes so I don’t know how to get another friend that I can trust and have fun with at the same time.

im feeling better for some reason- doesnt mean i sometimes dont wish someone else was there but im starting to realise that there are people in my life that love me- i just need to reach out to them

when im with people i want my space. but when i have my space, im lonely. the problem is ive already pushed everyone away