be the right person instead of trying to find the right person

I have spent this whole time trying to find the right guy, when I have been who I don’t want for the longest time. I admit I am wrong for not practicing what I preach. It is a part of life, I guess. Lesson learned.

being on the path of betterment i realised that nothing is absolute in this world every thing around is quit relative. More I tried to be right more i found that i still need improvement and this is on going process. Today when I look back i find myelf in much better position then before i.e. my today’s cordinates has reached to a considerable height from my point of refrence….......................But still its just better…....best is yet to be achieved….....
and the urge of always having a right person for every thing around has already got down when i realised that the right person will automatically with you if you are at the right track so its better to be a right person instead of finding some one right or better…....

I am failing at this goal once again. I am once again obsessesed with a particular boy and even worse, this one has a girlfriend. No, starting tommorrow I will try to avoid thinking about him all the time. I will no longer stalk his facebook page. I will improve my life and who I am, not caring how it will make me appear to him.

Omg! I’m still trying to find the right person. I just love boys so much. frustration.

i’m really going to focus on this goal now. I think it is so important to be happy with yourself before going into a relationship. I need more confidence and i don’t think i am going to find that in some guy.

and realizing the changes I need to make in order to attract that sort of person. I will admit that I can be quite lazy, and this will require effort.
My first goal is essentially to be more altruistic, although that is a vague way of putting it. So i will have to limit the time for my selfish pursuits, and that is hard when you work full-time….in your off hours you really just want to vegetate :X

Sometimes I feel like my flaws are not catastrophic…..I don’t have to be perfect to deserve someone….no one else is perfect, so why do I have to be?

i can’t stop looking. i’m trying to just focus on bettering my life, but i can’t help devoting all my time to searching. aaahhh!

I need a better self-esteem, not vanity, but a real respect for myself as a person. I have to like myself & not be shocked when others do. I have to stop all this internal negative dialogue & give myself a break.

I need to be less selfish. I think about people, but I don’t act on those thoughts & do things to show them I care.

I also need to be less depressed & more motivated. I find it easy to slip into my old ways of isolating myself socially.

A year ago today I found this site. Since then I ran three half marathons, had the courage to date a guy who I thought was out of my league, left a profession that I no longer enjoyed, and gained a little more faith in myself. Although my life still isn’t exactly as it might be in my fantasies, I’m enjoying it.