be the right person instead of trying to find the right person

being on the path of betterment i realised that nothing is absolute in this world every thing around is quit relative. More I tried to be right more i found that i still need improvement and this is on going process. Today when I look back i find myelf in much better position then before i.e. my today’s cordinates has reached to a considerable height from my point of refrence….......................But still its just better…....best is yet to be achieved….....
and the urge of always having a right person for every thing around has already got down when i realised that the right person will automatically with you if you are at the right track so its better to be a right person instead of finding some one right or better…....

I am failing at this goal once again. I am once again obsessesed with a particular boy and even worse, this one has a girlfriend. No, starting tommorrow I will try to avoid thinking about him all the time. I will no longer stalk his facebook page. I will improve my life and who I am, not caring how it will make me appear to him.

Omg! I’m still trying to find the right person. I just love boys so much. frustration.

i’m really going to focus on this goal now. I think it is so important to be happy with yourself before going into a relationship. I need more confidence and i don’t think i am going to find that in some guy.

and realizing the changes I need to make in order to attract that sort of person. I will admit that I can be quite lazy, and this will require effort.
My first goal is essentially to be more altruistic, although that is a vague way of putting it. So i will have to limit the time for my selfish pursuits, and that is hard when you work full-time….in your off hours you really just want to vegetate :X

Sometimes I feel like my flaws are not catastrophic…..I don’t have to be perfect to deserve someone….no one else is perfect, so why do I have to be?

i can’t stop looking. i’m trying to just focus on bettering my life, but i can’t help devoting all my time to searching. aaahhh!

I need a better self-esteem, not vanity, but a real respect for myself as a person. I have to like myself & not be shocked when others do. I have to stop all this internal negative dialogue & give myself a break.

I need to be less selfish. I think about people, but I don’t act on those thoughts & do things to show them I care.

I also need to be less depressed & more motivated. I find it easy to slip into my old ways of isolating myself socially.

A year ago today I found this site. Since then I ran three half marathons, had the courage to date a guy who I thought was out of my league, left a profession that I no longer enjoyed, and gained a little more faith in myself. Although my life still isn’t exactly as it might be in my fantasies, I’m enjoying it.

Well I’m far from the right person but I’m being a bit more content in myself. And maybe someday soon I’ll have a lot to offer someone. I already have something to offer. Not sure what haha. but yeah. :)