make up with my friend

She was my best friend for 10 years. 11 years, this year.
I told her everything, she told me everything.
We shared everything. She was the number one person i never wanted to lose after my mom. I don’t say all of this is her fault, but i know for sure this isn’t my fault. It’s just all very hard and sometimes if i’m thinking about my future, i’m so scared it will never be okay between us, and i can’t imagine not being with her in the future, because she’s my everything :’(

here’s what happened:
Well, the fight that we have right now, i call it the big fight.
Before this big fight we had a lot of arguments and at some moments it was very awkward between us. It started when Lisa (that’s the BFF) had this other close friend, and i’m really not a jealous person, but Nadia (the close friend from Lisa) didn’t like me for no reason, she didn’t even know who i was, but she disliked me. So i started to think okay this Nadiagirl is a weird person…
So Nadia did a few things including calling me fat (she’d never seen me in real life!) and i talked about this with Lisa and she said she understood me and said she started to dislike Nadia too. But after a while Lisa changed her mind and became really close with Nadia and i kept telling Lisa i hated Nadia. So yeah, after a while we had a fight about this, but 2 weeks later I made it up with her because i missed her so much. So things went well for a week between Lisa and me. She had a boyfriend for a few months and i liked him, he’d become a good friend of me too. But because i didn’t saw Lisa so much because she lives about 10 kilometers from me and we’re in different years at school, we decided to see each other in the lunchbreaks at school. At first this went well, but after a little while she didn’t do anything else than kissing with her boyfriend in those lunchbreaks. I kinda understood, because they were really in love. But she seriously forgot me for about 20 times! And everytime i said something about it, she said ‘oh sweety, i’m sorry i won’t do it again, i promiss!’. But she did it over and over. Then we had holidays for one week and i we planned a sleepover at Lisa’s place. The day before the sleepover, i texted her about tomorrow, because i didn’t hear anything from her for a few days. She texted back: honey <3 no, tomorrow i’m still at Nadia’s place, i sleepover at hers tonight (: xoxo. I was really angry at that moment and i got on IM and i asked her what the hell this was. She didn’t know what to say and from that moment we had the big fight until now, 2 and a half month later (yeah, that’s really long and i felt like a year).
I talked to another good friend of her, Vicky.
I said i wanted to make it up with Lisa and Vicky wanted to help me.
But because Lisa blocked me on IM and she didn’t return textmessages i sent her, Vicky talked to Lisa. But Lisa kept avoiding anything Vicky asked about me and if she missed me. I’m really depressed the last days, from the moment Vicky told me this.
She said she was going to talk with Lisa when she saw her (that’s in a week), instead of over IM. I really hope things are going to be okay, but i doubt it…

PS.The names i used are not the real names of the people, because i don’t want them to read this and think ‘omg this is about me’ :p

someone i considered a “good friend”, we were getting rather close, and had known each other going on to two years, decided he was going to “ignore me” after something i said/did. Now what i said/did wasnt even something terrible, he just took it overboard. We havent spoken for about a month now. I never wanted it to be this way, i miss him so much, and if it were up to me we’d be more than friends. I could go “make up” with him right now, but i’m afraid that if i do that, its me giving in. I want him to see what he’s done to me, and that he needs to treat me better…

I lost my friend of 13 years to a guy and it was all my fault. He was her boyfriend for 2 years but they had a really crappy relationship. Since the beginning this guy and me seemed to mesh well together, we just fit. But since they were together I never thought anything of it. Until they started getting rockey again and I would talk to him on aim to try to help him with her. In the process I found out he liked me. They broke up and the guy and I started hanging out behind my friends back she found out was ok at first then got upse and demanded I stop seeing him. I promised many times id stop, but I didnt and I got caught. So now were not friends even though I tried really hard for it to not end up this way. I understand why she would hate me what I did was really wrong and id hate me too but at the same time I dont think we should have ended our friendship like that. Ive been wanted to talk to her some how if not to repair our relationship then to at least get closure. But im afraid to write cause I dont want her to reject me again but I think its worth a try especially since it was all my fault. The other thing though the guy and I are still in a relationship and I love him more than anything so Im sure that will make things even harder.

Being bitter never helped anyone… finding a good middle ground where you both understand eachother’s veiws feels amazing.

He was such a good friend and I treated him so badly. I miss him and it’s only been two days. God I’m such a bitch sometimes and who do I punish. Myself. I really love him he’s such a great guy. and I’m a jerk.

I’m just so happy everything is going to be ok apparently.

It’s been three weeks since my friend and I talked. And I know that it’s a good thing right now to give her space. She said she needed it, and there’s no point in butting in and demanding we talk right now; I’d only lose her forever. But I’m missing her less and less. Thinking of her less as the days go by. And it’s frightening.

One of my best friends in the world pushed me away because she needed “space.” And I have to find a way to fix it.

I miss her a lot, I really hope she isnt mad at me. I haad to leave town and I owed her money, I really didnt mean to, and now I am scared she doesnt want to see me anymore :(