become a better person

i think i might have matured a bit.

looking back, ive done some stupid things this year, i just really want to rectify my mistakes, become the person i want to be, and be happy knowing myself. before the end of the year i hope.

here goes!

I’ve always thought of my self as a generally good person, but it’s those sly comments I always find myself making…

I don’t know if I will ever be the person that I want to be, but I know that I can’t just expect it to happen. I have to work at it. So, here I go. Wish me luck.

I believe im a good person
but i also believe that i can be better
do more things to help

i want to become more of a better person, because i feel the world needs a strong person to help the afflicted, and the ones who dont no christ, and helping them by listening and encouraging them to come to the lord because he is our refuge and our strenght in time of trouble, we lean not unto our own under standing but by his wors we are healed.

i want to become more of a better person, because i feel the world needs a strong person to help the afflicted, and the ones who dont no christ, and helping them by listening and encouraging them to come to the lord because he is our refuge and our strenght in time of trouble, we lean not unto our own under standing but by his wors we are healed.

I have done alot of soul searching in the last couple of days..and this is what I have come up with…..

1) I do believe that I have many friends, but only certain ones I would call my “close” friends. Distance, time and age are all a factor when it comes to who I have as friends. Some are a few years younger, some are all the way across the country and some I have not seen in months, maybe even years. I don’t feel that I have to much in common with those who are younger than me, and some times I just feel like a 3rd wheel but to be honest, I wouldn’t change it, our differences is what makes us great friends. Then there is a friend who lives so far away that I doubt I will ever see him, but still I feel as though I have a great friend in him, and you never know maybe someday I can tell him that in person. For those of you I have not seen in months, what can I say…I miss you all!! But the way I look at it is, you are all my friends…and each one of you has a specail part in my heart, and should time, distance or age tear us a part…at least I can look back and see your face, your smile…and know that there once was a time that we were friends. I rather have a few days, months or years of your friendship than none at all. I love ya all!

2) I believe that I could become a better Mom for my kids. Now I am not saying I am a bad Mom, because I am not! What I am saying is I am a Learning Mom, I am taking each day to find new ways to raise, teach, disipline and learn with my kids. Each day is a new beinging, each day is a day for myself to learn something new about each one of my babies…each day is a specail blessing I get to experience over and over again. I may break down every now and then, and just wish for a break…but when the day ends and I see my babies lying in bed…I can’t even explain the love that flows through me. When I gentle kiss their chubby cheeks and whisper “Mommy Loves you, see you in the morning”, time stands still for that extra moment. I can’t imagine a day without my kids, to not be able to hold them…I can’t possibly imagine the pain I would feel. My kids are my life, my inspiration…they are my everything.

3) I have some to turns with my relationships and why they have all failed. Yes I expect to much and some times I set standards to high. But I do believe I should not settle for less than what I deserve. I deserve to be happy, I deserve respect and I deserve to be loved. If I am not happy should I have to settle with it? Should I settle with little or no respect…and what happens if the love is no longer there? Then what…do I still have to settle with it? No I don’t and I wont…but I will not from this day forward expect more than I am willing to give. I will give 100% into my relationship, I will be more understanding, respectful, generous and I will just be me. And should a day come when I just don’t have it in me, I will stop and realise just how much I have and how greatful I am for it…then I will start the day over.

4) I am a better person and in time everyone will see that. But the one person that I want and need to see it is Me!

I don’t want to change who I am, I just want to expand who I am. I want and need to become more than what I am today. In time its important for me to see a change in myself.

i need to be more generous to the people i love

i am only a young person, but i know in my heart that i want to be a better person. i want to be more confident and peacefull. more happy and greatfull.

totally working on this daily