feel the fear and do it anyway

This is a biggie, because I feel like I really need the stuff. My OB says, however, that most women taper off in the third trimester if they can because the baby can actually have withdrawal symptoms for up to two weeks, including seizures! He sounded like I can choose to stay on it, but I cannot take that chance for my baby girl.I’ve gone off it before with BAD results (almost divorced during that time). So this is a bit terrifying. Prayer, prayer, prayer.

I had an episode of “feel the fear and do it anyways” today at work. It involved being asked to do something that I’m totally unfamiliar with. I thought to myself, “what would a totally confident person do in this situation?” – do it and not be afraid of looking stupid. So I did! (OK, so it’s not anything life-changing, but I think it tells me that I don’t have to be nervous or afraid of small things, I can just run right through them).

THe fear comes and goes, I hope I can continue to do it anyway.

From Randy Pausch:
In a virtual-reality course I taught, I encouraged students to attempt hard things and not worry about failing. At the end of the semester, I presented a stuffed penguin—“The First Penguin Award”—to the team that took the biggest gamble while not meeting its goals. The award came from the idea that when penguins jump in water that might have predators, well, one of them’s got to be the first penguin. In essence, it was a prize for “glorious failure.” Experience is what you get when you don’t get what you wanted. And it can be the most valuable thing you have to offer.

A couple of months ago I listed some things I associate with risk/fear. Let’s see where I’m at now;

• Financial risks (investments, property)
  I have made some investments in myself, and enrolled in several personal interest workshops. I still have not made any leap regarding investments or property. Will look for opportunities to educate myself in finance, but for now I’m happy enough with my savings routine

• Driving
  No action taken, yet. But I’m not avoiding the idea like I used to. If it comes down to it, I’ll be happy to a day off to sit the test

• Being honest! I sometimes find it easier to shy from communicating clearly than to be upfront
  This I’m still learning

• Seeking career challenges
  I feel like I have so much on the go in my life outside of work, I’m still fine at the moment in my current role

• Following my dreams
  More than ever, I’m listening to my inner voice. I’ve invested time and money into 6 short courses and workshops so far this year. I’m loving learning, loving life and I feel my dreams are more within my grasp than ever

• Travelling without a job to come back to
  One of my close friends who I’ve travelled several times with, is returning to Europe this September. Having a birthday cocktail overseas a still an option I am entertaining!

• Having too much trust when I don’t have all the facts
  This year I’ve been taking action more quickly, instead of pondering too long on all the potential outcomes. I’m trusting myself more, to make the decisions that are right for me.

So the main focus at the moment is learning and having new experiences. I’m doing plenty of that right now and I can feel the changes :)

I have conquered the fish tank thing, mostly by exposure and a good psychiatrist who understood that the phobias were not real in themselves, but manufactured by my anxiety driven brain to account for the constant fear.

My agoraphobia- mostly licked. I no longer get freaked out in wide open spaces.

Roller coaster phobia- I rode one. I was catatonic for a full day and experiencing flashbacks for two weeks. Never again.

of this goal from “take more risks” to “feel the fear and do it anyway”, which feels more appropriate when I am looking at what I want to achieve from this goal. Also the new wording seems to make me look at my desired outcomes more. So much to do this year, but I’m moving forward, which feels good!

weve all felt this lots of times, and some times we dont to whatever it is we have too, but i never noticed untill now.
i know im going to feel the fear again and im going to do what ever needs to be done! if i can lol.

I feel the fear, hopefully I can do it anyways.
In a year or less I plan on moving to Chicago from Florida.
I wish I had someone, a friend, that would make the move with me but there’s no one. I hope I can do this on my own. :/

If I’m going to have this as a goal, I need to be able to measure it somehow. So what do I consider risky? I’ll try to be honest and not miss anything;

• Financial risks (investments, property)
• Driving
• Being honest! I sometimes find it easier to shy from communicating clearly than to be upfront
• Seeking career challenges
• Following my dreams
• Travelling without a job to come back to
• Having too much trust when I don’t have all the facts

I’ll come back and look at this list very soon, and review what areas I feel I need to pursue. Some of them (eg. follow my dreams) of course, I know I need to act on more. Well now I have something to work with!

With my accidental foray into comedy performance the other week, I totally proved to myself I am capable of looking risk in the eye, and winning :) Bring it on!