be comfortable in my body

So last night the bf & i dropped a tab & had a gorgeous laughter-filled love-buzzed trippy WELOVEBEINGYOUNG&INLOVE night! We went to a party & a big walk & had a heap of fun together, totally left all our cares behind. It was FAB.. up until we got home & went to take a shower. Even though i have been working out more regularly & been being a bit better with my eating, i just felt yuk & kicked up a fuss. But this time i didn’t getaway with it – i got a major Buck Up Pep Talk (which lasted until 6am!) & realised just how much my body issues have been affecting my partner, not just myself – & how much damage it’s causing. He’s amazing & yes it hurt to be yelled at about something so deep & painful to myself but it was a wake up call that i have to change. I know i have a good body, i work at it & i’m genetically lucky, but yeah it can be better – but hating it & depriving my bf of physical contact ain’t gonna solve anything. I gotta nurture my body coz it’s the only one i got, use it &improve it!

So I’m 17, 5’7” and weigh 210…i really need to lose weight so that when i walk down a street or through the halls at school i can feel totally comfortable with my body…that is my goal and i really just need support with all this…

I just got my belly button pierced yesterday and instead of being extremely happy i noticed how i had to lose weight. It’s awful, everyone that i showed it to said, oh no it looks great, you’re silly stop saying you need to lose weight you’re fine. I just feel like a chubby slob though because i eat all the wrong foods and have stopped exercising and just sit around and do nothing basically.