It’s hard to move on with your life if you have loved it so much. I love my life. I love the past and the present, and can’t wait to see what my future holds. With that being said, my past was perfect. I was happier than I have ever been, so content with every single thing. And while I am so happy where I am right now, I find myself missing a lot of aspects of my life. High school is a big one. I miss sports, my friends, the boyfriend, living with my parents and just knowing what life was going to be like. I just spent the last half hour watching slideshows and youtube videos kids in my grade made when we graduated. Rewinding and pausing to look at these people’s faces, trying to comprehend the fact that high school ended almost 3 years ago and that things are never going to be like that again.
It’s hard. Doesn’t help that im wicked emotional and sentimental, either. I know I am over my ex-boyfriend, but that doesn’t mean i still dont miss him as what used to be my best friend, or maybe just the idea of him at this point. ugh. life. i suck. 8 months ago
I feel like this is impossible. At least for me. Right now.
Right after Thanksgiving, my boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up. We both still love each other and will probably end up getting back together this summer, but no matter what, I think I will always dream about the past.
It used to be much easier.
Before college.
we started dating senior year of high school. It was perfect. I never imagined us breaking up over anything, for any reason.
Til the distance starting to ruin everything. We never saw each other and all I ever wanted was for our relationship to be “normal” again.
But what was normal? Normal was high school. Summer. But high school is long gone, and summer only comes for 3 months a year. It sucked, and still does. I always wish we could go back to the days where things were easy and we lived 16 minutes away.
And now that we’re broken up indefinitely, all I want is the past. It is horrible.
in all other aspects of my life, I’m living in the present and future. Except for him.
I don’t know how to stop, though. Help. 15 months ago
I am so happy that I can finally cross this off my list and out of my life!! For a whole year of college I lived in the past. I cried about the loss of my high school friends, the lack of a social life, a purpose, and a lack of happiness all around. I kept reliving high school moments and old friends. I was pissed that my hs friends who went to the same college as i didn’t keep in contact the way that i wanted. I blamed them for my unhappiness. I thought that i couldn’t have fun, and live my life without them even though we never hung out after school during high school in the first place. I was mad that i was instate for college and resented my mother for lying about having money for me to go to college and then telling me that it was too expensive, and discouraging me from going. I kept comparing myself to others and felt really bad about my life.
Living in the past didn’t allow me to grow and made me bitter, living in the present makes me happy. :) 2 years ago
