talk to him

so his name is Luke and I just can’t seem to get up the courage to go over and talk to him. i am afraid that he might not be intrested but i kinda think he is but the whole thing makes me so confused. I have been waiting and thinking that if he feels the same way that he will approach me but that hasnt happen, but maybe he is waiting for me to appoach him. i know that sometimes he looks at me when he thinks that i am not paying him any attention when he relizes that i have noticed him he blushes and i do the same. I have no clue about anything so i am tottaly lost

I didn’t even try to talk to him today. I know, I know. Don’t blame me.

What Happened

It was me, a few of my friends, and him. He was sitting on the curb listening to elevator music in his head. I was laughing maniacally when I spotted him. He was alone, perfect. This is my chance, I thought, talk to him, you idiot!. And you know what? I did. I just said hi and…I don’t know we just talked about everything I could think of. Eventually, I started to realize that his eyes weren’t as blue and sparkly as I thought they were, and his smile was crooked and not the cute kind of crooked. He didn’t talk very eloquently, and he mumbled a lot. He didn’t like the Yankees, and he talked about random dumb stuff that even I don’t like talking about, like dogs and what was written on his arm. And so, I told him, “Um, kay well I’m gonna go now”. And as I was walking back to my friends, I realized that all my expectations for him were just…wrong. I realized that I didn’t really like him at all. My mum came to pick me up and I waved bye to my friends, happy with what i had accomplished.

What really happened

It was me, a few of my friends, and him. He was sitting on the curb listening to elevator music in his head. I was laughing maniacally when I spotted him. He was alone. I glanced over to him a couple of times. Go talk to him, I thought several times. But I kept talking to my friends, and I swear, every time I looked over at him, his eyes just got bluer and sparklier. And every time, I tried to push my self to walk to him, but that never happened. Eventually, my mum came to pick me up and I waved bye to my friends.

I need to just…TALK TO HIM! Why is that so hard? I could probably start up a conversation with a random hobo on the street, and be more comfortable talking to him than with him. Ugh.

I don’t know why this is so hard, but I guess it ties into the “Get over him” goal. Maybe once I get over him, I’ll be able to talk to him. Or maybe once I talk to him, I can get over him? I don’t know. Anyways, I did talk to him a little bit. Like yesterday, he asked how to spell “cancer”(yeah, he’s not the brightest crayon in the box…) and so I spelled it for him, and he said, “Okay, thank you.” And the little fangirl in me did a somersault. Yeahhhh, but I think that’s been the only time I actually got up the nerve to say something. I’ve tried and tried but it’s like I lose my voice the second I actually stand in front of him and open my mouth, and then I just start babbling to the person next to him. It’s pathetic. But I will do it!

I’m not so enthusiastic about this anymore, but I’ll keep it on my list. I never had a crush on him. I just wanted to talk to him, so I’ll keep it in mind.

Well, cos the guy I like is in year 11, he’s doing his work experience this week and the next. Guess this isnt going to get done anytime soon…

So there’s this guy at school that is SUPER cute an I just want him to know that im alive =]
He’s in the year above me so I dont have any lessons with him but were both in the school play and we have to rehearse at least once a week so maybe I can get him to notice me their…

xD

heyxx

he’s always with a massive group of friends.
I need to take some kind of action..

I will talk to him… I just need to find the right moment. The next time we’re both waiting for the bus.