find faith

I think it’s found me. Since going to church more regurally I have “faith” in the back of my head. Things dont always seem so bleak and impossible anymore and I’m starting to let things go. The whole religion thing is still confusing and I’m not 100% sure what I believe in, but I do believe and I do have faith.

starting to see the good in people again (still irked by the bad though). Liking the idea of putting all my worries away but still unable to let go completely. I think if I felt I had some purpose, or calling maybe I could have a little more faith. Some days I’m so moved by the spirit I’m sure of lifes purposed but then you hear about bad news and you think, how could God allow such things? There must not be one. So what is the point of us being here? It’s the back and forth that’s weighing hard on me! I wish I could have that childlike belief again. I have truly accepted that my life is not my own though so I guess in that respect I have let go. I just wish that little amount of faith lightened my load a little more!

I just hope i dont lose what I have found like I normally do.

It doesn’t even have to be “god” or “higher power” maybe spirituality or being able to have trust in myself.

i have never had faith in anything. I was born an atheist. this needs to change.

It’s the best thing I’ve done in 2008!

I am very peaceful and very happy.

..because my mom wants me to. And I think it is important for my daughter to have that experience. But I don’t know what i believe. I want to believe in something.

I believe that there is/are a higher power(s).

I just don’t understand the context in which I believe.

I want to explore a variety of belief systems.

It’s a strange thing, how we process things in our minds.

Being non-religious left me the luxury of not falling under their rules, dogma, perceived punishment…

so now that I am thinking more about it; more about my own mortality and thinking that maybe it would be good to have some guidance because, well, let’s face it: so far, going my own way ain’t working. I want to believe in something more. I want to think that there is some divine power out there that can create miracles. I want to think that if I dedicate my life to God, that I will feel better… and not just feel like a chump.

There are so many questions that I have. So many.

I’m not religious. I was born and raised Catholic, I even got confirmed before I realized that I wasn’t a part of a religion for myself and because of faith, but because it was what I was told to do. There are a lot of things that I don’t believe in that institutionalized religion stands for.

But I feel like now I’m not only lacking a religion but a faith. I want to know more about the world’s religions before I settle down to one or, more than likely, decide to remain Agnostic.

Hoping this book might help, not such much “enlighten” me, but at least open my eyes to other ways of looking at things, rather than… not looking at them at all, which is what I’ve been doing.