act my age

i have spent my whole life trying to grow up, get a good job and all that. and now i just want to be young.

I always seem to forget I’m young and that I’ll never be young again. I need to be a little more reckless and a little less obsessive about every last detail, although that makes me me. Not all the time, but certain situations. I’m trying. Hopefully college will open up more doors for me than high school did. I think it will.

Last night was a blast. And totally the actions on a 21 year old :)

I have to stop accepting responcabilitys for other peoples actions I am washing my hands of other peoples behavoral problems and accepting my own responcabilitys of my own actions. And accept that I am not at fault for what other peoples actions I know it’s my responcability for my own actions and I cannot deal with other peoples mindless stupidity. I am going to wash my hands of other peoples problems and accept my own. I am being forced to deal with myself and my own actions.

all i gotta say is, i wanna learn to be more mature

I have been thinking about this goal a lot this last week. I realized that I have no idea what “Act my age” even means. It’s different for everyone. In a lot of areas in my life I act beyond my years. Yet I still have those moments that I revert to acting like a young child. I don’t despise either. I like having innocent fun, laughing at stupid things that aren’t that funny. I love to let loose and elephant fight. I love to twirl around until I am dizzy. I love it when I laugh so hard for so long that I forget what made me start laughing but keep laughing anyways. Some of these things may be juvinille but they are the things that make life a little easier to get through each day.

The new definition for this goal is not to be more responsible or to stop acting like a child as most would think. The definition of this goal is to let loose, have fun, be silly. Act how I feel and not how others expect me to. I am going to laugh at stupid things, I am going to twirl in circles. I am going elephant fight. They balance me out to the age I actually am.

haha i’ll never act my age.

As quite a few people have mentioned before me, I realised that it doesn’t matter what age I act. It all comes down to the people around me. I’m proud of the fact that I’m very mature for my age, but what irked me was that none of my friends were…just find a different crowd! :)

...I don’t think I am more responsible than others my age. Honestly, I simply don’t know. Most of my friends are either much younger than me, or have moved away.

I need to start seeking out a more mature crowd. I have had my fill of the “Dude, let’s get wasted!” crowd.

I want a nice glass of Merlot and low-key conversation. I want to talk about things that matter without being met with blank-stares or stifled laughter.

I guess this is growing up…

i am sure i am stunted on this one because people never treat me my age because i dont look my age. i get away with a lot, pretending to be a kid.