MJwench is be sick from swimmins when it be too cold
I’ve had some profound personal insight recently, regarding my expectations and unrealistic demands I’ve created for myself. My goal is about giving up the negativity that drives me to exhaustion. I can’t do everything, and trying is only going to burn me out, rob me of joy, and leave me with a miserable set of circumstances in living life.
It’s reasonable that in my university years, I’m not working 30-40 hour weeks at work whilst studying 30-40 hour weeks at school. This reasonability means that having less money as a result is actually okay. Having a degree will allow me to develop the skills which I’ll need to maintain my position in society when I’m older, as traditionally the job market is always an open book for young people (but quite the opposite for old). This is called the bigger picture.
I need to let go of my hangups about having no money during these years, because even when I earned almost 40k in the last 12 months I wasn’t happy anyway! The extra few hundred a week ensure greater security, sure, but the stress of working that hard ensured stress and lack of me-time as well. I am adjusting this expectation of myself to a more realistic version of 15-20 hours work per week, in addition to 30-40 school hours. I don’t need 80 hour weeks. Not at this age. Not for such small ground. I need physical and emotional wellbeing, so therefore I am aiming to working for insight rather than money.
