be less jealous

” One of the hardest things to believe is the Bible’s declaration that each one of us is specially designed by God. “For we are God’s workmanship”(Ephesians 2:10) According to the Bible, you are a one-of-a-kind, original masterpiece. You have been beautifully designed by God.” Youth Walk Devotional Bible

My boyfriend is wonderful, but because I know he cheated on his ex and because I am so insecure I get jealous, which is hard for both of us to live with.

I’m a ridiculously jealous person. I can recall one time when my boyfriend was talking about how beautiful Carla Bruni-Sarokzy is…and I got jealous! How is it even okay for me to feel jealous? Anyone can objectively say that she is gorgeous.

Anyway, I realize it all stems from insecurity. I’m trying to do things that make me feel better about myself. I’ve lost 15 lbs. so far this year and I already feel much more confident in my own attractiveness and less put out when my boyfriend comments on other women. I am also trying to remind myself that he and I click in ways that he would not be able to with other girls…it helps. But to say that it isn’t an uphill battle would be a lie. I’m still working on it, in any case.

I get jealous easily. I get jealous even when my boyfriend speaks to other girls, no matter how platonic the relationship is. I’ll keep finding fault with her, finding something about her that I don’t quite like.. including the fact that she’s talking to my boyfriend.

It’s ridiculous and I know it. He doesn’t do anything to make me feel insecure, I’ve met his female friends and all. It’s just me.

I’ve read that it has to do with me investing TOO much into US. I’ve lost sight of my own goals, dreams and aspirations.. simply because he makes me so happy. But depending on just one person for my happiness is unhealthy and draining for him. I can’t put all my eggs in one basket. I’ve got to spread them out, focus on myself abit more.

So in line with Being Less Jealous, I’ve got to focus on myself abit more. I’ve recently joined a Pole Dance class.. which is so much fun! I’m not doing it for HIM or anything, I’m doing it for myself. I love the challenge of swinging myself around the pole (minus the bruises of course) and of immersing myself in a passion I enjoy.

I’ve also made a more conscious effort to spend time with my friends.. I need more friends though! Sometimes I feel like I’m the one who keeps asking them out.. most of them are so busy. I need to meed new kids, my age who have the same goals as I do. Some of my friends are HIS friends.. I need MY OWN friends too.

Let’s see what else I can do. =)

I don’t want to be jealous but this is hard. I am so jealous of other people going on trips when I can’t. I’m at work and all I hear about is people’s trips and they go on SOOO many. I’m in my carpool and they’re planning vacations with their families. I’m at home and my aunt is getting ready to go on a trip, while other family members are taking about a trip they went on last year. I’m even getting depressed going on Facebook; Every time I log on someone else has pictures added of their trip to Hawaii, or Florida, or Jamaica…somewhere…Oh my, I really don’t want to be this way. I just want some excitement and a trip could give me that. I just can’t go anywhere now because I’m saving for a downpayment for a house and then I’ll be saving for my wedding. A house and wedding are wonderful and I hope that people don’t think I’m taking them for granted…because they are my dreams, too. I just want to get away and have fun :(.

I have never been a jealous person until I began dating my first boyfriend who has had a fair few of girlfriends before me…. haha :O.

I’ve learned that most of my jealousy is about not feeling competent and strong. If I feel like I can do the things I want to and be the person I naturally am, I have no reason to feel bas when other people, including my partner, do what they want to do. So this is a big thing: I will have to take care of myself and I will naturally feel better about other people too. And then my relationships will also be better.

We’re currently staring to open up our relationship to be non-exclusive, and that’s a huge big thing for me. I’ll see how I’ll react when or if my partner has another partner or even a fling at some point. Then I’ll really know what state my mind and my jealousy centers are in… But this far, it’s looking good. At least the idea isn’t that threatening to me.

Oh, I am much less jealous right now than I used to be, thank you. But I’m not checking this as done before jealousy has stopped feeling like the black monster it still is to me.

I feel Like I am very jealous of others and there successes I think that is the reason that I am finding myself stuck in the same place

I had one favorite spot at a park near our house. It’s a big old tree that gave shade to anyone who sits under it. It became my sanctuary, my oblivion. The tree witnessed all my greatest triumphs and my horendous defeats, even my daily-nothings. I don’t know what’s with the tree but even though it has not uttered a single word, it made me feel the comfort that I have been looking for all my life. It warms my heart when I am cold and it cools me everytime I feel like bursting out. I had my sweetest dream under the tree. I felt so happy that I engraved my name on it’s trunk. But days passed and rainy season came. I didn’t had the chance to visit my favorite tree at the park. When I got back after the rain had stopped, I found out that there are a lot of creatures hanging on it’s branches. Creatures who had seeked for comfort during their trying times. I stood there looking at how happy are those creatures with my tree. I felt so jealous. I thought that those creatures should stay away from my tree because I was the one who found it first. But later did I realize that my tree had a new glow since those creatures came. For sure, the tree was also happy with the creatures around. I tried to mingle with them thinking that I could work it out but I was wrong. As the days passed the tree had become so distant. I felt that it doesn’t want my company anymore. I thought hard with what’s going on with me and my tree and I had come up with a resolution. The tree had been existing before I came. It didn’t ask me for the treatment that I had given it. So I have to pay the price. Yes, I am hurt. I am hurt to the extent of feeling the nothingness of it. I know it will be hard but I have to let go of something that I thought I owned. Oh yes, trying to do some metaphor here. But anyhow, in simple terms, I admit, I think, I have lost a friend. A friend that I have once believed will be mine for the rest of my life. Problem is, he got closer with the rest of my girlfriends and I have no way of bringing back the old friendship that we have had. Yes, I am jealous, very jealous