stop stressing out

i can be totally cool one day, and then BAM, I’m anxious, scared, nervous, angry, afraid, cautious, paranoid and so on. I am so tired of feeling like this, and lately I have actual matters that are so severe that i’m just going out of my mind lately. I have to go to court in 2 days, i think i might be pregnant, i live in a hotel room currently, im supposed to be getting married soon, im 19 years old, i attempted suicide about a week ago over stupidity and broke my fiances cell phone in half when he tried to call 911. i realize what im saying is more severe than stress, i realize i have schizophrenia and im bi polar, but it would really help for some good ways to let go of the stress, i can work on the rest of it myself with a physician.

Anybody out there with a good method of relieving stress?

Im from South Africa and visited China several times. There are many beautiful places to see, nevermind the people as it takes time to adjust to a foreign culture. The shopping and things to do are amazing. I want to live there to do business. I want to supply my country with the new innovations that China has to offer. I want to go live in Ghangzhou.

Im from South Africa and visited China several times. There are many beautiful places to see, nevermind the people as it takes time to adjust to a foreign culture. The shopping and things to do are amazing. I want to live there to do business. I want to supply my country with the new innovations that China has to offer. I want to go live in Ghangzhou.

Im from South Africa and visited China several times. There are many beautiful places to see, nevermind the people as it takes time to adjust to a foreign culture. The shopping and things to do are amazing. I want to live there to do business. I want to supply my country with the new innovations that China has to offer. I want to go live in Ghangzhou.

Stress has become so normal to me that I hardly know when i’m stressed and when I’m not. I finally completely broke down last night- i’m overcome with fear, concern, anxiety, stress, and confusion. I feel as thought I can’t let go of any of it- its eating me up inside. Although it was a joke- i’m starting to think that Medication isn’t such a bad idea.

This goal has the aura of impossible right now. There is so much to stress out about that i’m not sure what to stop stressing out about first. Maybe I need medication to assist with this goal?

Its been on again off again with this. Its like one day Im all “zen” and feel great about everything…and the next day im on the verge of a nervous breakdown. It just dosent make any sense to me. Ohhhh well. Maybe I have a hormanal imbalnce or something. Thats it! Im obviously going through men-opause.

What I have noticed:

• Yoga really works for me
• The muscles in my shoulders actually feel like muscles and not rocks
• The boy being more pleasant to be around helps
• And not having 50 million (said as in Austin Powers) assignments to do also helps

Happy days are here again.

Due to one of my other goals (break up with boyfriend) I’ve not been home much for the last few days. I’ve been staying with some wonderful friends and crying alot. Which I guess is releasing some tension. I think I’ve been habouring a bit of frustration lately. It’s very hard to be in a situation where someone you love has turned into a brick wall.

I’ve also finished my last exam for the uni semester, which is a relief. Although I had a dream last night that I got an assignment back and went quite badly. I’m just going to ignore that dream. Even if I did do terribly, there is nothing I can do about it now.

There is 4 weeks until uni goes back. Hopefully I can be completely rejuvenated by then and ready to do my best and get awesome marks. I really hope so, but I’ll do my best to think about the now.

And I’ll do heaps of yoga.

I’ve found a really good yoga movie and I am hoping it will help me find my inner self and be happy about it. It’s an hour long and I think it’s quite good. I felt really calm for about 3 hours afterwards, which by my standards of late is pretty good. I’ll be sure to let you know how it goes over the coming weeks.