3 months ago

I will avoid anything that I believe has the potential to give me pain. All human beings have a need to avoid pain—it’s a survival instinct. When I believe something might lead to pain, I focus on it to help avoid it.

Today I am going to take this 50” Flat Screen TV apart and see what is really going on. It is funny how I make up the story even before I do anything. whew, I got to let that thought go, and pick up the screw driver and have fun.

BRB4 months ago

“Now that’s scary O.o” 4 months ago

So yesterday when I was hanging out with G, I told him I liked him. I know he likes me and I know he knows I like him, but this was the first time it was an, I dunno, intimate proclamation of “like”. It was a vulnerable move. He didn’t say that he liked me back or anything, but I know he does. That wasn’t even the important part. Shortly after I told him that I got a feeling of insecurity because I know he’s never been in love, and doesn’t take well to proclamations of affection. But that’s ok, becuase being vulnerable like that takes some bravery, and that’s something I want to try to do everyday, do something that scares me a little. In the long run, I like him and lot and I sense he likes me a lot too. Let’s see where this goes. 6 months ago

So I want to start doing something, every day that makes me at least a little nervous. Today I’m worried about going to P
s bday party thing. I’m going with A, which will make me feel a little better about it, but still. i don’t know why I’m acting like this. I’m sure it will be fine once get there. Meh. 6 months ago

I haven’t even meant to accomplish this lately but I have been! There’s been so many stressful situations that I’ve had to deal with lately. A couple of them scared the crap out of me!! Like having to pull a 26 foot trailer, catch a loose ferret outside our hotel, or fall int the pool, the deep end and yeah i can’t swim. These three may not sound scary, but for me they were. 23 months ago