Be a good sister

My sisters are my world. Whenever I am about to do something stupid I remember how much they look up to me and I think twice.

love them.

I’m a bad sister or anything, it’s just that one of my brothers, who is 6, nearly 7, years older than me, find me annoying and is super hygiene conscious. Not that I don’t shower regularly, which I do, but I might be having a bad hair day (Not a rare occasion) and he teases me about my hair.

Starting today I will set aside 30minutes a day that is just with eachother.

but I need to STAY a good sister,
be like a friend to my sister,
my little sister who’s so young still, but not,
2 years younger really isn’t that young at all.
<3 nüsschen

i have two cousins who are like and almost were my sisters. the older one is 15. She and i didnt get along very well, we had vicious fights almost everyday. she probablly won every single one! :( i should not have annoyed her! i dont get to see her now. only write and email. and the younger one is eight going on nine very soon! she and i rarely fought. everyone said that we shared the same brain waves and were connected at the hip. we followed each other and said the same things at the same time. i miss them both very much, i hope to see them again someday!! also in the future it is very likely that i will get a bunch of little brothers and sisters… my mom is gonna adopt! At first i cringed at the thought of a bunch of tiny monsters and was stubborn to only except the little sister i used to have. but i felt ashamed at my selfishness because those little kids need a family and just want to be loved. i always begged for siblings! i think i could handle having them around! Loving them, teaching them. now i’m excited!! my mom wants 100 of them!! i know i will be kept busy! wish me luck! – Morikahjo!

i took my first beach trip of the season yesterday with two of my closest girls. we were sitting on the tightly packed beach (MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND. but it wasn’t too bad) and i happened to look up at the right time because right there in front of me was my cute sister in her black bikini with her farmer’s tanned boyfriend, matt. they were visiting from newark and coincidentally spread her blanket about 10 feet from ours. i hadn’t seen her since easter and it was amazing to be able to actually see her again. she’s my idol. i want to be just like her: gorgeous, successful, and most of all, happy. i love her and i can’t wait to spend more time with her! she got all giddy when i mentioned my visiting soon! i can’t explain it. she’s my big sis!

she crazy! ahahaha. no. really.

It’s a bit difficult when he hasn’t responded to any of the e-mails I have been sending in the last month. :-(

Maybe he’s just busy.

Have you had one of those moments where you feel an intense love for your sibling(s)? I experienced it a few days ago. Perhaps it’s because I’m away from home, but then it doesn’t make any sense. Why now, all of a sudden? I moved away for college 3 years ago, and since then, my relationship with my brother has been quite distant.

We were never that close to begin with. The 11-years age gap between us often makes me feel like he’s the younger version of my dad than an actual brother. Plus, we didn’t actually live under the same roof until I was 9 years old – so, I spent most of my childhood feeling as if I were the only child.

Up until this point, I was okay with our sometimes cold/sometimes lukewarm relationship. However, a few days ago, I started to feel that I need to put more effort into improving my relationship with my brother.

I have to at least give it a try.