Invite: good, positive people into my life

This will happen organically without any mental effort. I may be hindering this goal by trying so hard and being so conscious of it. I want this to be fun and spontaneous. Life feels good that way.

As I evolve and become a better person, good people will naturally find their way to me.

I love this goal and all that it means, but I’m not fully committed to it. Soon.

I’m getting that much of this goal has to do with perception. Good and positive are ways of perceiving people. People are just people until I assign traits to them. As I recognize the good in myself I’m seeing the good in others, too. So there’s two parts to this goal: attracting great people to me and seeing their greatness.

When I let go of the need to have relationships, they find me. Now, it’s accepting good into my life.

I think they’re coming. Or maybe my door’s opening wider. I’m scared.

Love feels good. It doesn’t hurt. Such obvious statements but I’ve only begun recently to ‘think’ about love. I’ve always intuited it and never thought about it. When I think about love this way and compare it to the behaviours of those close to me – who taught me what I thought was love – I see that it was not love at all; it was narcissism. They saw me as an extension of what they were. I didn’t get this for a long time and went out into the world looking for people who ‘loved’ the way they did and consequently had complicated, hurtful relationships.

When I think of love as feeling good, of being supportive and protective, uplifting – it becomes very clear who are loving people and who are not. My life up until now has been spent seeking out those that fit my old way of knowing love. I get this. With this new definition, it’s very clear the kind of people I want in my life. My eyes are happily open.

I’m going to live into this goal and not force it. There’s no point in trying to force myself into relationships. This has never worked in the past. So now I want to naturally flow into whatever it is my Universe has planned for me.

I know you’re there. You scare me. I’m scared. Let’s dance around each other for another song, and then I’ll exhale and we’ll do a jig together.

It feels like people are more attracted to me lately. This afternoon, while walking past the window of a bookstore I was a man craning his neck to see me as I walked by. As I met his eyes he smiled at me. This has been happening a lot lately. I’m not totally sure what to make of it. I think now that I’m more open to inviting people into my life the world see’s me as more open.

I don’t know where to find the kind, open, compassionate, mature people that I want in my life. I know they’re all around me but I don’t know how to meet them. Since I’m going to let go of trying so hard, I’m going to flow with it and let it happen as it will.