stop being so shy

Everyday I am see people, but find myself isolated. I don’t understand exactly why this is. I am not a terrible person. lol. Anyways, I am resolving to be proactive in my social life, and take that extra step. I resolve to take confidence in myself, and not let myself feel inadequate compared to other people. I am an interesting person, and I do have interesting things to say. What I have to say does matter- just like everyone else.

Im so shy that every 1 well almost every 1 thinks im EMO!! even my family that knows me thinks im EMO or GOTHIC!! and i REALLY want to be like not SHY anymore!!!!!!

I hate being this way. I tell myself i’ll change; i try to think positively. But it never works. I always end up sitting in a corner being antisocial. And whenever i absolutely have to talk in front of people, i get nervous and start shaking. It’s so embarassing.
And i do and say a lot of idiotic things. Isn’t it better to be perceived as shy rather than a stupid bitch? Maybe i just need to stop thinking what other people might think of me. God this is so hard! i don’t know how to start.
Everything’s difficult before it’s easy right? I just need to be strong i guess. Who am i kidding? I’ll give up before i even start.
No. I’m gonna try harder every time i fail. i hope.

I have always been shy, and always hated it. Recently I’ve told myself, and certain others, that I’m not going to be shy anymore.. I still am.

But, I got a job. I was VERY nervous about the interview, but all in all it went well. I got the job. Then I got more nervous because the job was as a waitress and I realised that I had to ask random strangers for their orders etc. and also that I had to work with a random bunch of people I’d never met before. But it was fun and really helped me.

Also, I went out with the boy I like. I told him I like him, which is something I NEVER do, but he makes me feel comfortable. He likes me too (:

I’m getting better and things are looking brighter :)

I asked a guy out the other day. :) (We went out.)

So i just got my first job. It’s calling people and giving surveys. Probably the worst job for a shy person but i think it’s already helped me a little bit. So far i’ve been hung up on, yelled at, and finally completed my first survey which took about 5 minutes of talking to somebody I don’t even know. I hope this helps me be able to talk to people easier. We’ll see.
Good luck everyone!

I really want to do this, but don’t know how. It’s easy to say to myself that I won’t be shy… but then I actually get out around people and i’m completely nervous. I’m not shy with people who I already know and relate to, or to people who make me feel comfortable… but that doesn’t apply to the majority of people.

Today: random chit-chat with the guy who sits next to me in one of my classes. We have exchanged a few brief sentences before, but it was always something like,
“So do you think you’ll do well on the exam?”
“Hopefully…”
“Yeah…”
I am amazed at actually being able to carry a conversation for more than a dozen sentences, not all of them brief. I mean, we talked for five whole minutes! Five!

I’ve been smiling at random strangers and find that a lot smile back and during the process ive been able to strike up normal conversation, Some which have really made me laugh. it’s funny i don’t think i could have done this last year. So Basically really improving

Managed to carry on a short and civil conversation with a neighbor in a grocery store.
Lent a pencil to the guy that sits next to me in class, and briefly exchanged scores on exam. Also, last week we chatted a bit before the exam.