stay clean

i’m tired of drugs ruining my life. theres plenty more ways to feel euphoric.

im thankful for many other things too.. specially that im still alive to be able to have this opportunity to get a chance to start over..

last friday i picked up my orange 30 day key chain..

today its actually been 4 weeks and 6 days.. im excited.. you know why? cause i KNOW.. this time…. im going to go much further.. and i am going to make it..

i believe in ME..

is an opportunity to try it again. Being in lifelong recovery is still somthing I have to try and wrap my head around.

69 days and counting

• attend daily meetings
• complete a daily inventory
• maintain a gratitude list
• daily readings
• weekly therapist visits

Hi Everyone! I have 68 days clean from using opiates and benzodiazepines. I have always needed something for something. Not only am I a codependent/prescription drug addict, I am also dually diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.

My drugs of choice were anything I could get from my doctor that would eliminate or reduce my physical and/or emotional aches and pains.

I am also addicted to people, places, and things. Thus, I am a regular at Alanon.

Life is so much better without the drugs.

three years ago i decided to ask for help with my drug addiction…i won’t go any details about my using other than that I started out smoking pot occaisionally when I was 14 and by 19 i was smoking and snorting meth daily, not to mention using any other mind-altering subtance i could get my hands on. I was a garbage pail kinda addict…like, whatever you got i’ll take it…and i gotta say that living that way i was g*ddamn miserable.

so anyway, i got into a 12-step program three years ago and it saved my life. I relapsed last May but I’ll have a year clean again July 1st. I would not trade my sobriety today for anything. Being clean rox!
And for anyone out there who thinks they may have a drug problem or they’re just damn tired of using: it is possible to get clean and stay clean.
i believe in you.

Seems to be the hardest thing in the world for me to do. No problem getting clean, just staying clean. Stay clean for a month or two, then get bored and end up using again

6 months
and ive didnt noticed it!

I know as well as any addict how hard the struggle is every day when I was using I had tons of friends now I’ve sacrificed pretty much all of my friends to stay sober Its hard feeling like the outcast like your not fun to be around any more. The constant acussations from my family when I know I haven’t been using is the hardest thing I deal with It’s like because I was once guilty I’m guilty forever I’m trying to learn to be comfortable with myself I still can’t be alone without falling apart Waiting for the day the urges are gone I’ll be waiting forever once an addict your an addict for life but you can choose to be a sober one

Being sober is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Almost 16 months clean after a 10 year affair with cocaine- every day you wake up sober is another day under your belt. It’s hard, in the beginning it’s excruciating… every moment is like the hardest crash you ever had (I wonder if it’s because you know you’ll never go back) but it does get easier.

Now, I don’t think about it as often… maybe every few days. I know I’ll be addicted forever, but I’m not willing to give up everything I have for 20 minutes of “happiness”. I took Renton’s advice and “chose life”.