Make people around me happy

tonight i’m going to a party. i guess it’s easy to make those around me smile and laugh. the hard part is putting the effort to do so. it’s not that i don’t love them but boredom has set in and there’s not much i really want to do. everything’s predictable, but i’ll try nonetheless.

who likes to be sad? i know i dont!.. ive been sad constantly for the past two weeks and considering unspeakable acts of self injury..

but once you realize that there is something more that just being sad all the time.. it makes you feel good..

when your friends around you are happy.. you are happy!
but if your sad all of the time it will just cause trouble for you and them…it almost made me girlfriend break up with me the other day..

i realized that i would do anything for my friends that surround me.. because the reward is the ability to make me happy..

which if everything works out right… we should never be sad again!

I like feeling happy and good inside… even when life is dishing out to me 1,000 rounds with Tyson a minute. I can not remain down. Hey! don’t get me wrong here… right now I’m riding through hell backwards; but I find that I can only focus on the positive. When your down there is only one other route and that is up! Because I feel this way, I feel compelled that everyone I meet should share my positive vibe… I’m not preaching, its all done in your manner and how you treat people. I only want them to remember the good about me.