find who the real me is

is a girly-girl at times. Sometimes a tomboy, sometimes one of the guys. loves to read and write. enjoys spending time alone, thinking. Also loves spending time with people important to me. Is a child of God. loves to cook and work with her hands. Has a child inside the grown-up. Has a grown-up inside the child. overcomes her fears, doubts and insecurities. loves taking pictures. is afraid to express shortcomings. hates heights. would climb a mountain to help someone. finds swimming a way to refresh the soul. hates confrontation. loves a friendly argument. is full of contradictions and loopholes and shortcuts and twists and turns. I don’t know all there is to know about myself, but I’ve got a good start, and so long as I live according to what’s important to me, I’ll find out when the time is right for me to know, and I’ll be ok. I count this goal as done.

I don’t think I can even verbalize it, but today was one of the days where something just slams you. It started with my pastor’s sermon this morning, continued with me creating a mission statement for myself, and just kind of snowballed from there to everything being clear again. The music I was listening to definitely helped as well, because that is who I am (a mixture of George Strait AKA the King of Country and T-Bone a Christian rapper and worship music- eclectic mix, yes, but nobody can be lumped into just one category, there are too many facets of the human mind and emotions for that).

What’s the difference?

I haven’t slept for three days, drank a lot of coffee and lot of wine, listned to really good music (both live and reproduced) and I realized who I am and want i want to do! It is wonderful feeling!