Figure out my religious beliefs

i love jesus, but not christians. i was raised a very strict baptist, but don’t know if i belive god exsists(some people may find that wierd, or dumb, considering i love jesus- you’ll have to talk to me in person to get that explination). i find myself praying every once in a while, but i dont know who to, or if i’m praying to anything at all, or just talking to myself. i long to be spiritual and passionate about something, as i once was about christ, but i hold myself back because i’m too afraid it will be for the wrong reason. will i believe in something so strongly because i know i have found the meaning of life? or will i become spiritual simply because i am TRYING to give my life meaning? i will never, for as long as i live, ever become invloved in any religion because i am trying to create some sort of purpose or reason for my life. it will be for reasons that i am not completely sure of yet…

i jokingly declared that I was going to figure out whether or not I believed in God this summer. And weirdly enough I think that the issue has found me in many ways. But I think all of the framework of religious and spiritual beliefs is there but I just choose not to think about it very often because it’s difficult.

And the more and more I think about it and explore my own beliefs, the more I surprise myself! I just need to find some more reading on the subject perhaps too. I always like a new angle.

I realized that I do not need to fit myself into one religion and that spirituality is more important. I really didn’t try to actively look for a religion and now I’m really okay with being agnostic.

I don’t think I’ll ever do that… at least, not anytime soon =(

I have gone through all of the sacrements( that I am able to) in the Catholic Church and I have found that I am Catholic and that I believe in God. I have believed in God most of my life but my parents actually had me attend a Christian school, we were basically taught that Jesus Christ is our savior( which I believe) and that God is our creator( which I also believe) but it also taught that Roman Catholicism was a distortion of Christianity. I questioned my belief in God for a few years but eight years ago, after a particularly bad situation at my school, I started attending Mass and after eight years of doing this, that Catholicism is the right religion for me.

I figured out that i believe more of the Jewish religion than anything else! i am converting to Judaism and i am sooo happy

this probably sounds odd, but what i believe often depends on my mood and what i want to believe at any given time.

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I’ve been wondering about my religious beliefs after dating my very unreligious boyfriend. He became a Christain when he was much younger but then felt brainwashed by all of the beliefs and has since shunned Christianity. I was more or less a Christian believer because I was raised that way.Since then I have begun to question my beliefs.

So far I have only drawn these conclusions: I believe in God, Jesus, and the Bible. I believe in God because somewhere in me, I just know. Its a deep seeded feeling within me. When I start to stray from my beliefs in Him, I always end up being pulled back. So He’s not a question. I believe in the Bible because of the number of things within it that have been proven true historicly. And finally Jesus is in the Bible so I believe in him too.

I’m not quite sure what to make of the Bible though. It’s very confusing and very open to interpretation. Maybe that was the way it was meant to be, maybe not. I’m still trying to figure out what to make of the Book.

Since the Bible holds the key to how to act and how to go to heaven (I’m pretty sure that’s real too) and I don’t know how to interpret it, I’m not sure where I belong in the religious world.

So this is where I am. I try to be a good person, try to help others, and be nice. If that’s what it takes to get into heaven, which I sort of doubt, I’ll have done it. I also don’t think that God will hold it against me if I accidentally sin becuase I don’t understand the Bible. I’ll confess to Him, though, that I’ve sinned because most likely I have.

Now as to renouncing all worldly things and only serve God, well I think God put us here to enjoy earth and grow to learn about Him and tell other people “Hey, God’s upstairs, you should meet Him”. I don’t think giving up everything and living a nun’s life is necessary. I think living a good life in his world is what God wants.

So basically where my religion is in question is with the Bible’s interpretation, what happens to the non-believers, and if it’s important that I fall under a religious category.

But you know what? I’m glad I’m questioning. That way I’m in now way blindly following like other’s around me. I might never find the complete answers but I’m working towards it.

I finally realized that I am agnostic. I am at peace now!!